Good morning! I am indulging myself in half a cup of coffee. which i no is not the best for baby #2, but last pregnancy I drank no caffeine and I don't think it makes a difference. There was a pregnant girl at meetings i was going to and she was drinking tall red bulls with a chaser of coffee and her baby was fine and probably more docile than Delores.
Delores had a better night last night. No bottles (yay!) I still got up a ton of times because of the baby in my belly, but I think I can make it just 2 more weeks. That's right two weeks from yesterday and I will hopefully be holding a little baby in my arms.
Today is no special day so we will follow our schedule as always:
8:00-8:30 Delores gets up for the day
8:30-9:00 Cartoons
9:00-9:30 Breakfast
9:30-11:00 Playtime
11:00-12:00 Nap time
12:00-12:30 Diaper changes and cuddle time
12:30-1:00 Lunch
1:00-3:00 Playtime
3:00-4:00 Nap time
4:00-4:30 Diaper changes and cuddle time
4:30-5:00 Playtime
5:00-5:30 Dinner
5:30-6:00 Baby Einstein video
6:00-6:15 Visit with daddy
6:15-6:30 Bath time
6:30-6:45 Dress for bed and give a bottle
6:45-7:00 Bedtime
Obviously I do other things during nap time and before and after she goes to bed. But that is only 4 hours of my day. Not much to mention, just cleaning, dishes, laundry, making lunches and dinners, and maybe a little bit of relaxing. Well it is 8:30 and time to start out day. Have a great Monday everyone!
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
sunday's events
Today went very well. After I blogged (so weird i never thought i would say that) and got ready for the day I got a great sense of peace with my life and just became happy. It lasted the whole day. You may not care about this blog or may think it's lame, but I'll tell you something, it has proved to be very therapeutic for me.
Church was great. Pastor Madden preached on Genesis chapter 12 and 20 about how Abraham put his wife off on other men and claimed she was just his sister to protect his hind end even though he was a prophet of God. The lesson was we are human and our faith struggles sometimes. The enemy comes in and makes us doubt whether God will do the things he has promised us and it doesn't just affect us as an individual, it affects innocent people around us. Like our children and our loved ones. We as humans doubt God and we ask for more even though we take advantage of what he has given us. When we can handle the little things God will give us great things. Fear is the source of why we doubt God and fear and faith cannot exist together. When fear in the form of just anxiety or worry are in the picture we are not trusting God. It was a good message.
After church we went to eat and Delores did pretty good. We came home and she was so cute. She started dozing in the car and I had to talk to her to keep her awake so i could get her inside and lay her down for a good nap. She slept for 2 hours. During that time my mom showed up to take me to see my papa in Marietta at the nursing home. I couldn't go back to his room because everyone is so sick there so they wheeled him out to me. It has been 3 months since I've seen him when he was still living at home. Earlier last week my mom told me that hospice was called in to take over his care. This of course really broke me. I've never had a relative die before and it was just like they were saying he was dead already. He and I have more in common than any other relative, including my middle name (also Delores's middle name), and we have always had a closeness that just came natural and now....well he is 90 years old and it is just time. I'm very sad about it and I feel silly because I just don't know how to deal with death I guess. But anyway, i don't want to talk about it much because it hasn't happened and it just makes me want to cry.
So we left and came home and my daughter had been fed and it was almost time for her to go to bed. Josh got up from his 3 hour nap, we did bed time and josh was off again. But now he's back. Man that was like magic. Have a good night everyone!
Church was great. Pastor Madden preached on Genesis chapter 12 and 20 about how Abraham put his wife off on other men and claimed she was just his sister to protect his hind end even though he was a prophet of God. The lesson was we are human and our faith struggles sometimes. The enemy comes in and makes us doubt whether God will do the things he has promised us and it doesn't just affect us as an individual, it affects innocent people around us. Like our children and our loved ones. We as humans doubt God and we ask for more even though we take advantage of what he has given us. When we can handle the little things God will give us great things. Fear is the source of why we doubt God and fear and faith cannot exist together. When fear in the form of just anxiety or worry are in the picture we are not trusting God. It was a good message.
After church we went to eat and Delores did pretty good. We came home and she was so cute. She started dozing in the car and I had to talk to her to keep her awake so i could get her inside and lay her down for a good nap. She slept for 2 hours. During that time my mom showed up to take me to see my papa in Marietta at the nursing home. I couldn't go back to his room because everyone is so sick there so they wheeled him out to me. It has been 3 months since I've seen him when he was still living at home. Earlier last week my mom told me that hospice was called in to take over his care. This of course really broke me. I've never had a relative die before and it was just like they were saying he was dead already. He and I have more in common than any other relative, including my middle name (also Delores's middle name), and we have always had a closeness that just came natural and now....well he is 90 years old and it is just time. I'm very sad about it and I feel silly because I just don't know how to deal with death I guess. But anyway, i don't want to talk about it much because it hasn't happened and it just makes me want to cry.
So we left and came home and my daughter had been fed and it was almost time for her to go to bed. Josh got up from his 3 hour nap, we did bed time and josh was off again. But now he's back. Man that was like magic. Have a good night everyone!
deprivation takes over
Good morning. Well I am following through with my second goal. Not by choice to be honest. Yesterday I opened up my frustration with Delores's sleep habits to the world so I am sure you can probably tell that is the reason I am up and hour earlier than I normally am. Last night was rough to say the least. My child, who has not taken a middle-of-the-night bottle in two weeks, took 2 last night. She also got up for her normal times when her sleep cycles are the lightest and she realizes that her paci has fallen out and calls out for me to come rescue it at exactly 11:00 and 3:00 am. Not to mention since I'm pregnant I get up about 5 times a night to pee. So that makes a total of 9 times i got up last night from the time i fell asleep at 12 to 7. Is it humanly possible to go with out that much sleep? Consistently?
So how can i make the best of this day when all i feel like doing is laying in bed and recuperating from my excursions of yesterday? I just go on like every other day like nothing is wrong and I am superwomen enough to handle it all.
So, church, lunch, then a visit to the nursing home, and maybe a trip to get groceries. Hope you have a good Sunday!
So how can i make the best of this day when all i feel like doing is laying in bed and recuperating from my excursions of yesterday? I just go on like every other day like nothing is wrong and I am superwomen enough to handle it all.
So, church, lunch, then a visit to the nursing home, and maybe a trip to get groceries. Hope you have a good Sunday!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
people actually do that?
get a full nights sleep. I have not had a ful nights sleep without getting up since Delores was born 13 months ago. I just hae to say that and get it out of the way. Maybe as an explanation as to why I am so negatie sometimes. Try being sleep deprived for over a year and see how much of a ray of sunshine anyone would be. Anyway, an update on how my day went is needed so here we go.
1. I was able to eat breakfast with josh and delores had syrup for the first time (with pancakes, not straight). I was happy about that, but sadly he was called away right after that.
2. I got almost everything done with the house that i wanted to get done except for sweeping the kitchen, dining, and living room, moping the whole house, vacuuming, and doing something about that stinky recliner. I am in pain from all the cleaning and hope to not do that again for at least a month.
3. I listened to rock 101 all day so no kiddie music. yay! maybe when i fall asleep i wont wake up with kids' shows theme songs stuck in my head.
4. relax, that is something i didnt really do. i just kept think "this stuff has to be done before the baby gets here or it will drie me crazy," so i kept going and before i knew it my in laws were saying they were about to bring Delores home for bath and bed.
5. not be upset when i find out Delores did not get her second nap at my in laws. Well i made it till just a few minutes ago when i had to go in there and give her a bottle to go back to sleep. i just dont get it. she is perfect for them all day then she comes home and gives me hell. i know it is bc she is cranky from not having a second nap, but you would think she would give them a hard time too. No, just me. i guess i'll pay the price for my free rime till wednesday when she finally gets back on a sleep routine.
6. i did pretty good about not getting stressed when everything didnt get done. I'm hurting, i got a lot done, and I'm happy with that.
7. I got to spend as much time as i could with josh. we had lunch at firehouse and then a few hours later he came home to help me clean the shower. I got to see him for a few hours before i went to bed and i didnt get upset so overall i think it went pretty well.
well i guess im gonna try to get some sleep. church in the morning and maybe another blog not so blah. goodnight.
1. I was able to eat breakfast with josh and delores had syrup for the first time (with pancakes, not straight). I was happy about that, but sadly he was called away right after that.
2. I got almost everything done with the house that i wanted to get done except for sweeping the kitchen, dining, and living room, moping the whole house, vacuuming, and doing something about that stinky recliner. I am in pain from all the cleaning and hope to not do that again for at least a month.
3. I listened to rock 101 all day so no kiddie music. yay! maybe when i fall asleep i wont wake up with kids' shows theme songs stuck in my head.
4. relax, that is something i didnt really do. i just kept think "this stuff has to be done before the baby gets here or it will drie me crazy," so i kept going and before i knew it my in laws were saying they were about to bring Delores home for bath and bed.
5. not be upset when i find out Delores did not get her second nap at my in laws. Well i made it till just a few minutes ago when i had to go in there and give her a bottle to go back to sleep. i just dont get it. she is perfect for them all day then she comes home and gives me hell. i know it is bc she is cranky from not having a second nap, but you would think she would give them a hard time too. No, just me. i guess i'll pay the price for my free rime till wednesday when she finally gets back on a sleep routine.
6. i did pretty good about not getting stressed when everything didnt get done. I'm hurting, i got a lot done, and I'm happy with that.
7. I got to spend as much time as i could with josh. we had lunch at firehouse and then a few hours later he came home to help me clean the shower. I got to see him for a few hours before i went to bed and i didnt get upset so overall i think it went pretty well.
well i guess im gonna try to get some sleep. church in the morning and maybe another blog not so blah. goodnight.
nesting saturday
I realize I am probably more likely to vent about my day in the blog if I start writing about it at night after the day is over, so i'm gonna start first thing in the morning. Starting with my second goal: get up a few minutes before the babies do so I can have some undisturbed, worry free "me" time.
today I would like to accomplish the following things:
1. Eat breakfast with my husband. This is a big stretch when he's on call bc you never can be sure when he is going to be here.
2. Clean this house
3. Listen to music that doesn't having matching cartoons.
4. Relax and try to take care of myself a little
5. Not be upset when I find out my daughter was difficult with the in laws and would not take a nap.
6. Not get stressed when things don't get done bc of my physical ability or just because there isn't time.
7. Spend as much time with Josh as possible and not be upset when he has to leave me during the day.
well I here a little singer playing in her crib waiting for me to come and start her day so, I will update tomorrow (or tonight if I am not too bitter, lol) on how I did today. Have an awesome saturday!
today I would like to accomplish the following things:
1. Eat breakfast with my husband. This is a big stretch when he's on call bc you never can be sure when he is going to be here.
2. Clean this house
3. Listen to music that doesn't having matching cartoons.
4. Relax and try to take care of myself a little
5. Not be upset when I find out my daughter was difficult with the in laws and would not take a nap.
6. Not get stressed when things don't get done bc of my physical ability or just because there isn't time.
7. Spend as much time with Josh as possible and not be upset when he has to leave me during the day.
well I here a little singer playing in her crib waiting for me to come and start her day so, I will update tomorrow (or tonight if I am not too bitter, lol) on how I did today. Have an awesome saturday!
Friday, January 28, 2011
and so it began
So, this is my blog. It's purpose: more than likely to vent about what's going on in my life or about what is going on around my life. I guess I should make some goals or what not about what I'd like to accomplish this year or with this blog in general, but right now pregnancy brain has got the best of me. So i guess I'll just tell you a little about my self and the life I will be venting so much about.
Well, I've been married to Josh Lewis for 2 years and have a beautiful daughter who is now 13 months old. I am also 9 months pregnant with our second daughter. At the moment I am a stay at home mom with a brand new associates degree in paralegal studies that I have not been able to use due to the pregnancy, which I am so ready to be over with.
Today I spent 2 hours trying to figure out if I was in labor or just having very painful Braxton Hicks contractions. This pregnancy has been really easy. No morning sickness. Hardly an ache or pain just painful BH contractions. Now that I am 2 weeks 2 days away from my due date they are getting very painful and very uncomfortable. So painful that it was hard for me to take care of Delores (thank god she had to take a nap in the middle of those two hours). But, they gradually went away after a few hours. It is just making me think, how much more painful are the BH contractions going to get before the real thing happens. And how much longer is it going to be? I know I did the whole 17 hours of natural child birth with Delores, but I almost think the false labor is more painful than the real labor.
So anyway, Josh is on call this weekend, so there will be a lot of me time and stressing over how close we are getting and how much there needs to be done this weekend. I have the strong urge to nest, but since we will be waiting until after the baby gets here to put together the nursery, I will be cleaning the poo out of my house. Dusting, moping (for the second time this week), organizing, cleaning bathrooms, vacuuming, laundry, etc. I just hope my body will keep up with my mind and I won't be paying for it tomorrow night.
Also on my agenda for this weekend I am going to see my papa in the nursing home. He was just admitted about a month ago and there has been so much sickness going around up there I have been scared to go up there being pregnant and all, but they called hospice in to take care of him this week and make him comfortable so I am gonna to chance it for just a few minutes.
I hope you enjoy the blog. I'm sorry if I come off sounding bitter, ungrateful, or just hateful the majority of the time. I really am not like that all the time, but what else are blogs for? Maybe that's what my goal should be: To write more positive things about my life instead of bitching and moaning. lol. Well wish me luck
Well, I've been married to Josh Lewis for 2 years and have a beautiful daughter who is now 13 months old. I am also 9 months pregnant with our second daughter. At the moment I am a stay at home mom with a brand new associates degree in paralegal studies that I have not been able to use due to the pregnancy, which I am so ready to be over with.
Today I spent 2 hours trying to figure out if I was in labor or just having very painful Braxton Hicks contractions. This pregnancy has been really easy. No morning sickness. Hardly an ache or pain just painful BH contractions. Now that I am 2 weeks 2 days away from my due date they are getting very painful and very uncomfortable. So painful that it was hard for me to take care of Delores (thank god she had to take a nap in the middle of those two hours). But, they gradually went away after a few hours. It is just making me think, how much more painful are the BH contractions going to get before the real thing happens. And how much longer is it going to be? I know I did the whole 17 hours of natural child birth with Delores, but I almost think the false labor is more painful than the real labor.
So anyway, Josh is on call this weekend, so there will be a lot of me time and stressing over how close we are getting and how much there needs to be done this weekend. I have the strong urge to nest, but since we will be waiting until after the baby gets here to put together the nursery, I will be cleaning the poo out of my house. Dusting, moping (for the second time this week), organizing, cleaning bathrooms, vacuuming, laundry, etc. I just hope my body will keep up with my mind and I won't be paying for it tomorrow night.
Also on my agenda for this weekend I am going to see my papa in the nursing home. He was just admitted about a month ago and there has been so much sickness going around up there I have been scared to go up there being pregnant and all, but they called hospice in to take care of him this week and make him comfortable so I am gonna to chance it for just a few minutes.
I hope you enjoy the blog. I'm sorry if I come off sounding bitter, ungrateful, or just hateful the majority of the time. I really am not like that all the time, but what else are blogs for? Maybe that's what my goal should be: To write more positive things about my life instead of bitching and moaning. lol. Well wish me luck