4 days overdue

Okay, so I'm 4 days overdue. I can live with that. Lol. Anyone know what the stages of grief are? Have I hit them all yet? Lol.

Yesterday I started off pretty depressed even though I tried to be upbeat. My insensitive father sent me a text message yesterday morning (like he does almost everyday) with just one word "Today?" Well if I knew when I was going pop this baby out I'd probably be a millionaire because I would've figured out how to predict one of the great mysteries of life. I sent him one back saying "I don't know I don't have a timer." I just started crying. There is all this pressure on me to have this baby and I have no control over it, but people act like I do.  Anyway, after I balled like a baby to Josh over the phone and expressed how it just wasn't funny, I got up and got over it. I went in to get Delores up and she made me smile. I realized that soon she was not going to be my only child and I needed to take this time not as a disappointment that I don't have two children yet, but as a privilege that I get these few extra days to enjoy my daughter as an only child. So that really changed my day.

Everything else was pretty normal. Delores spend some time outside because the weather has been so nice lately and she enjoyed that. I actually did some housework to make the day go a little quicker. I put up some laundry that had piled up on top of the dryer and did some diaper laundry. I tried to do some dishes but I just couldn't bend down that much or even really reach the sink that well. I also made dinner. Josh got home about 30 minutes early last night which we all enjoyed because he got to see a messy Delores finish her dinner and then he got to play with her for a while. We went outside and they "chased," each other around the yard (as well as a toddler can chase on uneven ground). Then we did bath and bed and Josh had to make a run to the grocery store.  I just went last week, but I bought things in anticipation that we would have the baby already and Josh would be here and we would cook and freeze meals together. Well she is not here and Josh is still taking his lunch instead of eating at home so we ran out the things I didn't bother to get. After he got back we sat and ate ice cream out of the carton together and talked and then we went to bed.

Josh had baby monitor duty last night and I only had to tell him to get up once, but he told me this morning he did only get up that one time. Lol. He's so funny.

Today I have my 40 week 4 day appointment with my midwife and I'm not sure what to expect because I didn't go over last time so I don't know if we'll talk about induction or do a cervical exam or what. My mom is coming to watch Delores and she mentioned something about taking her to the park. That should be fun. I don't really care as long as I get out of the house. I hate being cooped up in the house. I've mentioned also that I'm not really made to be a SAHM either so the combination of the two usually sends me nuts by this time of the week, but I think I've talked about that before.

Two more days until the weekend and I get to spend some time with Josh! Have a great Thursday! Oh and Happy Birthday to my wonderful father-in-law!