and so it began

So, this is my blog. It's purpose: more than likely to vent about what's going on in my life or about what is going on around my life. I guess I should make some goals or what not about what I'd like to accomplish this year or with this blog in general, but right now pregnancy brain has got the best of me. So i guess I'll just tell you a little about my self and the life I will be venting so much about.

Well, I've been married to Josh Lewis for 2 years and have a beautiful daughter who is now 13 months old. I am also 9 months pregnant with our second daughter. At the moment I am a stay at home mom with a brand new associates degree in paralegal studies that I have not been able to use due to the pregnancy, which I am so ready to be over with.

Today I spent 2 hours trying to figure out if I was in labor or just having very painful Braxton Hicks contractions. This pregnancy has been really easy. No morning sickness. Hardly an ache or pain just painful BH contractions. Now that I am 2 weeks 2 days away from my due date they are getting very painful and very uncomfortable. So painful that it was hard for me to take care of Delores (thank god she had to take a nap in the middle of those two hours). But, they gradually went away after a few hours. It is just making me think, how much more painful are the BH contractions going to get before the real thing happens. And how much longer is it going to be? I know I did the whole 17 hours of natural child birth with Delores, but I almost think the false labor is more painful than the real labor.

So anyway, Josh is on call this weekend, so there will be a lot of me time and stressing over how close we are getting and how much there needs to be done this weekend. I have the strong urge to nest, but since we will be waiting until after the baby gets here to put together the nursery, I will be cleaning the poo out of my house. Dusting, moping (for the second time this week), organizing, cleaning bathrooms, vacuuming, laundry, etc.  I just hope my body will keep up with my mind and I won't be paying for it tomorrow night.

Also on my agenda for this weekend I am going to see my papa in the nursing home. He was just admitted about a month ago and there has been so much sickness going around up there I have been scared to go up there being pregnant and all, but they called hospice in to take care of him this week and make him comfortable so I am gonna to chance it for just a few minutes.

I hope you enjoy the blog. I'm sorry if I come off sounding bitter, ungrateful, or just hateful the majority of the time. I really am not like that all the time, but what else are blogs for? Maybe that's what my goal should be:  To write more positive things about my life instead of bitching and moaning. lol. Well wish me luck