sunday's events

Today went very well. After I blogged (so weird i never thought i would say that) and got ready for the day I got a great sense of peace with my life and just became happy. It lasted the whole day. You may not care about this blog or may think it's lame, but I'll tell you something, it has proved to be very therapeutic for me.

Church was great. Pastor Madden preached on Genesis chapter 12 and 20 about how Abraham put his wife off on other men and claimed she was just his sister to protect his hind end even though he was a prophet of God. The lesson was we are human and our faith struggles sometimes. The enemy comes in and makes us doubt whether God will do the things he has promised us and it doesn't just affect us as an individual, it affects innocent people around us. Like our children and our loved ones. We as humans doubt God and we ask for more even though we take advantage of what he has given us. When we can handle the little things God will give us great things. Fear is the source of why we doubt God and fear and faith cannot exist together. When fear in the form of just anxiety or worry are in the picture we are not trusting God. It was a good message.

After church we went to eat and Delores did pretty good. We came home and she was so cute. She started dozing in the car and I had to talk to her to keep her awake so i could get her inside and lay her down for a good nap. She slept for 2 hours. During that time my mom showed up to take me to see my papa in Marietta at the nursing home. I couldn't go back to his room because everyone is so sick there so they wheeled him out to me. It has been 3 months since I've seen him when he was still living at home. Earlier last week my mom told me that hospice was called in to take over his care. This of course really broke me. I've never had a relative die before and it was just like they were saying he was dead already. He and I have more in common than any other relative, including my middle name (also Delores's middle name), and we have always had a closeness that just came natural and now....well he is 90 years old and it is just time. I'm very sad about it and I feel silly because I just don't know how to deal with death I guess. But anyway, i don't want to talk about it much because it hasn't happened and it just makes me want to cry.

So we left and came home and my daughter had been fed and it was almost time for her to go to bed. Josh got up from his 3 hour nap, we did bed time and josh was off again. But now he's back. Man that was like magic.  Have a good night everyone!