No Josh = scarey day

Today is the first day without Josh home. Eek! My mom is coming to help, but there is nothing like the other parent's help.

I loved having Josh here with me. I really forgot how much I loved just spending time with him. We hardly get to see each other and he works every other weekend, so when we are together we are usually running errands and getting things done around the house. Even when we have special dinner dates or something we still talk about things we have to do because we haven't had enough time to wind down from our lives to just enjoy each other. He is so great. He helped out around the house and with the babies and spoiled Delores (in a good way) and she is going to be so mad when she gets up and he is not here. Just everyday things he surprised me with. When he doesn't have to work he is like a different person. He tried new food (something I struggle to get him to do) on his own, he and Delores picked me flowers, he read almost every blog post, he was so attentive and comforting. It was awesome. Sigh.

Today is going to be good though. I woke up in a good mood ready to start my day with confidence that I can do this and not loose my mind. We had a good night last night. We didn't have to go in to get Delores one time. Lydia went about 5 hours in between feedings, so I got about 4 hours of sleep at a time. It was the best sleep I've gotten since Lydia has been home. Oh and she was one week old yesterday. But anyway, Delores is still sick, but she started her antibiotic yesterday so maybe she'll feel a little better and won't be so rough on me. I still technically not suppose to do any housework, but I probably will anyway if I have time. I feel like I can work the girls schedules out around each other and I won't be pulled in different directions too often. The only thing I'm concerned about is pumping breast milk. I just got a double pump and I haven't figure out how I'm going to be hands free to pump yet, but I'll get it down. Hopefully. Lol. If I don't I can go to using my single pump, but I really want to get it down for Josh's sake because he hates buying things that I end up not being able to use. It would bother me too, but as long as I get the breast milk out then I'm happy.

Well Delores is calling so off I go to start the day.