Monday, March 28, 2011

start of a busy week

Morning all! Today is Monday after a long weekend and I'm excited to get this week started and over with.

Overall the weekend went pretty well. My in laws came and got Delores Saturday and I got some cleaning done around the house. Bathrooms, sweeping and moping, and just putting away stuff that accumulates throughout the week. I also went to Target, even though I thought I was just gonna stay inside because of the nasty weather. I got a hamper, a night light, a lampshade, and a piggy bank for Lydia's room. I got Delores 2 summer outfits and I bought myself more breast milk storage bags and a closet organizer that holds shoes since our shoes usually flow out into the middle of our bedroom floor or into the foyer. After I got back from Target I got all that stuff unpacked and put away and worked on Lydia's wall painting fr a little while. I got the outline drawn on the wall and then took a break. After all that it was close to 7 and I had to put Delores to bed and start consoling Lydia from her nightly screaming fit.

Yesterday was Josh's birthday, but he was on call and didn't get to do anything really for it. Josh's mom and sister came and got Delores for church since I can't seem to get ready in time with two little ones and I can't get them both out of the house at the same time. I worked on diapers till it was time for church to get out and then I headed over to "Stax's," to meet some of Josh's family from out of town for lunch. Shortly after I got there my wild one and her entourage showed up and all 14 of us visited for about 2 hours. Delores still wasn't feeling well and it was time for her nap so she was throwing fits left and right. I had a lot of help taking her mind of her unhappiness though so I didn't get too stressed out by her behavior. Josh was able to show up right after we got our food and he got to eat with us and be embarrassed by a huge piece of chocolate mouse cake, a birthday candle, and some loud "happy birthday," singers. Then we left and came home. Delores took a very short nap and then we did our normal play, dinner, bath, bed routine. After she went to bed I started working on the wall painting again and got a good chunk of it done. However, for the life of me I could not think of how to mix brown, so after it dried and I stared at it for a long time I decided I hated the color and now I have to repaint it. It will just bug me to death if I don't. I "bing(ed)," how to mix brown paint though, so I'm good and I'll get it right this time. lol. I just don't know when I'm gonna get around to it. Besides that Lydia's room is so cute. I have to get a shelf, finish painting the wall, put up some picture frames, paint a lamp, and make a slipcover for the rocking chair, but other than that the nursery is almost done. lol. Well the big stuff is in there. I'm just working on the accessories now. Lydia did good and we didn't have any screaming that night so I got a lot done. Which I will have to redo again. lol.

So this week is going to be pretty eventful. Today I am going to see "Prince," with my mom while Josh takes care of the girls. Tomorrow Lydia has her 6 week check up with Amy. Wednesday my dad is suppose to come and clean the carpets in the girls' rooms and our living room furniture (he steam cleans carpets for a living). Thursday and Friday I think I'm clear and then Saturday is Josh's birthday celebration day. We still aren't sure if I will be going with him to the shooting range yet because I have to make him dinner, but I'm gonna try to make it work where I have everything prepped and ready to just throw together or just pop in the over after we get home. We will see. I'm so excite to see Josh's reaction when I give him his gun though. He is going to be so surprised. Yay! Okay, so anyway, Sunday is church and then Monday something else very exciting happens, but I can't say just yet what it is. I will say that Josh won't have to work weekends anymore after Monday. =)

Well it is time to start our day. Poor Delores is in her room coughing and being miserable. I hate it when my kids are sick. I hope they feel better soon. Have a good Monday everyone!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Morning. It's Saturday and Josh is on call. It is also raining and nasty outside so today it not going to be very fun.

I don't really have much to say except that if I offended anyone yesterday, I'm sorry. I was having an off day yesterday and I don't know if it's because of the hormones or the lack of sleep but I just wasn't that nice of a person. So I apologize and hope to carry on without that attitude for today.

Also today my in laws are taking Delores for a little while so I can get some stuff done around the house. I have to go to target and get some stuff and then I have to come back here and clean, work on Lydia's room, and work on diapers. It's gonna be a busy busy day. I just hope Lydia lets me get the majority of it done. Yesterday she slept most of the day until about 4 and then she started getting fussy. It really wasn't that bad until about 7 and then the crying began. I gave her some gripe water and that seemed to help for a little while and then she started crying again till about 9. She got up at 3 to eat and she was coughing and sneezing and was congested so now I have two babies suffering from allergies. At least that's what i hope it is.

Well Lydia is calling. Hope yall have a good day!

Friday, March 25, 2011

5 weeks old, 15 months old

It's funny how mothers define the time of year by the age of their children. This isn't the first week of spring or even the 25th of March. It is the week Lydia is 5 weeks old and the month that Delores turns 15 months old. lol

So it has been a long while since I was able to write. The Lewis household has been in a whirlwind. We had my birthday celebration day. Which was really just a bunch of errand running that never gets done because I have the babies and Josh is never home. We did get all of Lydia's stuff for her nursery though so I was glad I got that taken care of. I also got a new pair of shoes from the "White House Black Market." So I got my new shoe fix for the year. And we went to Saskatoon's for dinner. I wanted to try someplace new. I got the duck and it was AWESOME! lol. We had a couple of pieces of duck when we went to the "Melting Pot," for our Valentine's day and we fell in love with it. Anyway, that's about all we did, but to make up for not really doing anything Josh got me Prince tickets so that is what I'm doing for my birthday.

Josh's birthday is on Sunday and the poor man is on call. He told me this morning another driver quit (surprise surprise) so it is just him and one other person on this weekend. He's going to be run ragged. April 2nd is his birthday celebration day. We are going to the shooting range to go skeet shooting. He doesn't know it yet, but he will also be pistol shooting. His 9mm got stolen out of his car about a year ago and he's been very upset about it. So I asked my step dad to find him another one and he pulled through. But it's a surprise, so shhhh! lol. I will also be making him diner and a cheesecake for his birthday.

Delores has been doing good. Just as wild as ever. She is having some allergy problems with all this pollen, but she is still a pistol. We made the decision to wean her off the bottle Saturday and we went cold turkey. The first night she threw a fit for about 2 hours. The next morning she threw a fit and then got over it. Since then she's been fine and we are now on day 6 without a bottle and never looking back.

Lydia is doing good. She was 10 pounds last week at her 1 month check up with Dr. Stafford and this Tuesday she has her 6 week checkup with Amy (my midwife). I think she'll probably weigh around 11 pounds. She's my little chunker. lol. We have given up on finding any other pediatrician because they either don't take our insurance or they insist on vaccinating your children or they won't see you. Insane policies. You try to do what you think is right for your kids and they force you to do what they want anyway. Well I'm standing my ground and the can kiss my behind. It's not a law and it's Josh and my own personal conviction not to vaccinate. We will not be forced to follow someone else's beliefs. At least Dr. Stafford supports our decision even if sometimes he does seem old fashioned and impersonal. Anyway, we think Lydia has colic. For about 2 weeks now she he been screaming from about 7 until it stops for no reason at all. I've tried to cut out dairy in my diet but everything has some form of dairy in it. The only thing I can really eat is meat and veggies with no butter. I haven't been very successful so I don't know if it's helping, but I'm gonna keep trying. We also got Lydia's crib and dresser together and moved her into her room and she has been doing well when we can finally get her to sleep. I'll post pictures when I get her nursery completely done. We still have one corner filled with junk and laundry baskets to get out of there. We have to take down the pack n play to fit those back in our room, which will happen this weekend I hope.

I am doing good. I'm 5 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight. I'm still pumping and stocking breast milk like crazy. I have almost 600 ounces (4.68 gallons) of breast milk in our freezer. It's getting crazy. I don't know what I'm gonna do with all of it. I'm still in the process of making diapers. When I get a chance I cut out some patterns here and there but I am still pretty far from sewing them. I did get all but 4 of Delores' bumgenius diapers converted from velcro to snaps. I have to wash the other 4 before I can do that. I am giving those to Lydia and the new ones to Delores because the new ones are bigger. So after I get those other 4 washed I'll be putting Lydia in cloth. Maybe by Monday. Delores will have to wait a little while longer.
Yesterday we went to my papa's funeral. It was pretty sad, but we had been preparing for it for a while so it wasn't as bad as it could have been. He died Monday night after I and the girls left the nursing home. They said they felt like he was just hanging on the see someone so my brother went up Sunday and I went up Monday. It was the first time he "saw," Delores walk and "saw," Lydia. I say "saw," because it was like he was in a coma with his eyes open. But about 5 hours after we left he passed away. I am just glad that he got to see me accomplish some things in my life. I always said that I wanted him to see me get married and have kids before he died and he did. So I couldn't ask for more. I honored him by giving Delores his name as her middle name and I am honored to be named after him also. He lived a good 90 years and I am glad that I inherited so much from him. I will miss him, but he is in a better place, watching over us and taking care of us in a way he never could if he were still here on this earth.

So that's what has been going on with us for the last 2 weeks I guess. Hope all is well with everyone else! Back to motherhood I go.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

I hate when Josh is on call. I always end up in tears and usually we get into an argument about something. That's all I have to say, just that I really hate when he is on call.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

25 and all grown up

Yesterday was my 25th birthday and I am excited to be 25. I have felt for a while that I am much older than my actual age. Married, two kids, a mortgage, and a dog just makes you feel like a grown up whether your age tells it or not. Although Josh has been teasing both of us (his birthday is the 27th) that we are going to be half way to 50, I prefer to take the glass-half-full approach.

I'll go ahead and warn you now this post is going to be very long because for once Delores is asleep, Lydia has been fed and is asleep in her swing and I have a little free time while the internet is actually working. We switched to AT&T and the internet has been on the fritz off and on for about a week.

This week went pretty well. I made it most all week by myself without help with the babies and I didn't freak out. My mom came yesterday for a few hours. There was one day that I shut down and by the time Josh got home I was ready to run out the door. He knows when I'm like this to take Delores off my hands and let me chill for a little while without talking to me. Otherwise he takes a chance of getting his head bitten off. After about 20 minutes I calm down and can be civil again. I am pretty proud of myself. While I was pregnant it was hard for me to be in mommy mode, but now that Lydia is here it has kicked in again and I actually wake up wanting to take care of my kids. It's been 10 months since I felt that way.

Delores has still been doing very well with sleeping through the night. Her days have kind of been thrown off for some reason. I don't know if it's because the time is about to change or what but she has been waking up later and later and going to bed later and later. Also she has been weaning out her second nap. When I can get her to take it sometimes it isn't until 4:00 or 4:30, which I don't like doing. I would just let it slide, but her first nap isn't changing. I figured when she would switch to one nap that she would be up longer in the morning and sleep longer during her nap, but she isn't. She is taking a nap 3 hours after she wakes up and only sleeping for an hour. We will see what happens after we switch our clocks but I'm thinking we will probably have to just cut out the second nap and move bedtime back up to compensate for the second nap.

Lydia is good I guess. She's a newborn and doesn't do much so I can't say much for her. The only thing consistent with her is that she eats every 3 hours during the day and fights sleep fiercely when she gets tired. That will change I hope. I don't need two bad sleepers on my hands. She is a good eater, which I am thankful for. Delores is a difficult eater and always has been. She spit up every time she ate until she was almost 9 months old and was underweight and behind by about 3 months on the growth chart. She still is. That is something that just doesn't change when you go that long with hardly keeping anything in your stomach. Lydia has spit up maybe once when my milk first came in because she just ate too much. Other than that she is terrific when it comes to eating. I think she may weigh about 10 pounds now. She is already in 0-3 month clothes which is a big difference from Delores who was in newborn clothes until she was 1 month old.

I am doing good. Beside actually wanting to be a mom again, I am just overall pleased with my life and myself. I have several things I am looking forward to and several things I am proud of. I'm excited about getting Lydia's nursery together. We have all the furniture, the room has been painted, the curtains are up, and it's coming together. I still have to go shopping for all the extra stuff and put the furniture together, but we are getting there. I also am going to start sewing diapers next week for Lydia and Delores. I am just waiting for the rest of my supplies to arrive. I'm anxious to get Lydia in cloth. I'm hoping that by the time she is one month old she will be wearing only cloth diapers and I can forget about sposies. I am also stoked that freezer stash of breast milk is growing quickly. Josh and I figured out last night that right now I have over a gallon of breast milk frozen and she's only 3 weeks old. By tomorrow morning I should have 300 oz stashed in the freezer. My baby will be on breast milk as long as I can possibly keep it going. The other thing i'm proud about is that I am about 9 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight. I'm not doing anything special. I'm just breastfeeding and the pounds are coming right off. Just like it did last time, only this time it is happening a whole lot faster. Mainly because I didn't gain that much in the first place.

So today I am going to try to work on my projects. Go shopping and clean a little. Josh's mom is coming to get Delores today so it will be just me and Lydia for a while. If she takes good naps and doesn't fight for an hour and a half like she has been then maybe I'll be able to get a good bit of stuff done.

So have a good Saturday everyone!

Oh and I would like to say congratulations to my friends Leigh and Ben on their engagement and to Katy on the birth of her daughter, Charlea. 

Thursday, March 10, 2011

3 weeks old

wow time flies when you have two kids and no sleep. Lydia is three weeks old today. It seems like an eternity ago that I gave birth but it really wasn't that long ago.

Lydia is doing well. She still has a little mucus but it is finally clearing up. The antibiotics I'm taking for my bout with mastitis are making her really fussy and having tummy pains towards the end of the day and night. Her last two feedings before bed are really difficult. She just keeps crying and acting like she's hungry and then cries when I try to feed her. She is burping good so the only thing I can figure is that the meds just aren't agreeing with her. Only 7 more days left of the antibiotic. Woo! yeah right. So Josh and I haven't been getting to bed until 11 or 12 at night, which may not be late for some people, but when I have to get up with her in the middle of the night and feed her and Josh has to get up at 4:30 for work it is late. She is also going through that phase where she doesn't want to be put down. I get her to sleep finally and try to lay her down and she throws a fit. This is the hardest part of being a mother of two. Because I NEED to lay her down so I can take care of Delores and give her some attention too.

Delores, as you can expect, is getting really fed up with me and with the baby and not getting attention and the things she needs when she wants them. She has picked up her annoying whining again, which I cannot stand, but I get why she is doing it. She has also started biting me and her temper tantrums have reached an all time high. It is a very stressful time and to be honest I wish I had something else for her to do besides hang around me all day, but she is too young for most programs and everyone is too busy with their own lives to help during the week. On a positive note she is doing great during the night. She is officially sleeping through the night at 14 months old. Wow. Finally!

I would tell you all about how I'm doing but I'm sure you can probably tell. Sleep deprived, irritable, have a pounding headache from lack of sleep, ready to pull my hair out, and searching for the little pleasures in life like doing my blog (which I'm not even enjoying bc Lydia wont let me lay her down), expecting new packages in the mail, decorating Lydia's room, adult interaction, nap time, watching "sex in the city," and sleep.

I would write a whole lot more, but Delores is crying in her room, and the pull between this, Lydia, and her is getting to be too much for me.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Finally!

It feels like it's been forever since I was able to post. I'm so glad I can get some "me," time without the kiddies. Although I would have chosen to get a little more sleep, but after feeding Lydia our insane neighbor let out his annoyingly loud dog at 6:30 and ruined my changes to get anymore sleep. I'll write about our issues with he and his wife a little later.

Where do I begin? Delores and Lydia and both still sick. Delores hasn't finished her antibiotic yet though and the new doctor opted not to do anything for Lydia. The new pediatrician was interesting. I don't know what I was expecting, but I was really not impressed. I met with a nurse practitioner which was my first problem. Not that there is anything wrong with NP's, but I really would like to meet with a Doctor for a change. The NP was kind of a bitch (for lack of a better word). She practically put me down for not wanting to vaccinate my children and we almost got into with each other in the office. Whatever. I wasn't even gonna bother with them if they made a big deal over vaccines but the receptionist promised me over the phone that it would be my choice and they wouldn't force me to do it. Looks like she was mistaken. The only thing I liked was that they have a lactation consultant on site available for free and medela breast pump items for sale for cheaper than babies r us. Lydia has her one month check up in two weeks and if I'm still not comfortable I guess I'll just have to find someone else.

Sleep has been going great for Delores. Oh my goodness, it is like a dream. For four nights in a row we didn't hear one peep out of her. Last night she got up one time, but I don't blame her for that because when Josh went in to rescue her he couldn't even find her paci. I had to hand him one out of the emergency stash. Yes, I stash pacis just for situations such as those. Lydia has gone to waking up every 4 hours instead of every 5 hours to eat. It wouldn't be so bad if she wasn't so hard to get back to sleep. Then after she goes to sleep I have to pump or by the next time she gets up I'd be in pain.

Speaking of pumping. I am proud to say as of right now I have 163 ounces of pumped breast milk in my freezer. Woo hoo! She is only 2 weeks old. I don't know how long I'm gonna keep it going but I have a feeling our freezer is gonna run out of room very quickly. Josh jokes we will have to buy another freezer for all the breast milk, but honestly if I keep going like I have been (three 6 ounce bottles a day) we will have to do something. I had such a hard time with low milk supply and pumping for Delores so she could eat while I was at school and then feeling guilty when I had to stop when I got pregnant that I have no intention of stopping anytime soon.

Yesterday was the first day I was alone with the girls all day long and it went pretty good. Delores got a little jealous for attention and wanted to be held more than usual. Lydia wanted to eat and fuss at inconvenient times, but that's what you got to do. I was able to do a little housework, the dishes and one load of laundry. The girls got fed and didn't go hungry. Delores had a nap. Lydia survived her sister's attempt to "play," with her. I didn't have a meltdown or scream at the kids, so overall I think it was a pretty good day.

Home life is going pretty good. Last week before Josh went back to work he insisted we stop and get my birthday present early, but they were out of stock so Monday I got my new iPhone via fed ex. I was excited about that. Yesterday the Ups man brought Lydia's bedding so I am super excited about that. I can't wait to get started on her nursery. We took the guest bed down last week, so it is primed for my creativity. Decorating is my joy. If I could be am interior decorator I would, but there is no school for it around here. So right now I get my jollies from decorating and renovating my house during the warm months and planning the decorations and renovations during the cold months. I love that my house is always a work in progress. I wouldn't have it any other way. When I can say "okay I'm done," then it will be time to move. Lol. So anyway, since we got her bedding, we will be painting her room this weekend. Also her dresser, crib, and curtains have all been shipped so we might be putting together furniture too if it arrives today or tomorrow. We still need to go shopping for all the extras like a mattress and changing table pad and things like that, but I don't see how we can fit it it unless Josh stays here and I go shopping. He probably will want to go with me though so we might be making a late trip to babies r us. Which will be fine with me, so I have something to look forward to all week.

Josh is doing good. He is missing the girls a lot. He went through this with Delores though when she was first born. He realizes how important family is and how much he doesn't get to see us now that we have a new baby in the house and he kind of gets a little defiant towards his job. He took the job because he wanted to be happy with what he was doing, and he does love driving a tow truck, but now his priorities have changed. It is a phase, because once Lydia gets a little older he'll want to go back to doing what he loves to be happy.  It's a man thing I think. They get satisfaction out of their jobs because they are ingrained to be providers.

Josh and I are doing good. We are offically sharing a bed again and it is great. Just like I had hoped, I can sleep straight through the snoring now that I'm not pregnant. I feel closer to him just being back in the same room. We are still adjusting to the lack of sleep and normally we pass out as soon as Lydia goes to sleep at night and don't do a lot of talking, but that will change the older she gets.  Before long she will be on a schedule too and in bed by 7 so Josh and I can have our couple time. Till then we will just make do with grunts and one-word answers. Lol

I know I have probably forgotten some things that went on this week. I will really try to post more frequently if I have time. Right now Lydia's schedule is still all over the place and I am too sleep deprived to just get up on my own early and miss out on some extra sleep where I can.