Today we were supposed to be getting Lydia's pictures made, but her outfit didn't come so I guess we will have to reschedule for next Saturday.
I have no idea what we are going to do today. I have an appointment at 8:45 to get a manicure that again was suppose to be for the pictures. They take those close up pictures of the babies feet and fingers in your hands and I want to have nice nails for her first pictures. And I wanted to get pampered a little. I'm working now and making extra income so we should be able to pamper ourselves after pinching pennies for 3 years while I went to school and had babies. So, I take that back, I am not getting my nails done for the pictures. I am getting them done for me. So there, lol.
Anyway everything has been going good. Delores has been doing better. She is still a bit whiny, but she probably always will be. That is just her, but we have it down to a minimum. Lydia is also doing good. She is sleeping 10 hours at night and eating 4 oz at a time. She weighs about 12 pounds and is 24 inches long. Next month Delores has her 18 month check up and we will find out if she has put on any weight or grown any. At 12 months she was 19 pounds and hadn't grown any in 9 months. Now She fits well in her 18 month clothes so maybe she has gained around 2 or 3 pounds. Maybe.
Josh is good. I think he is enjoying his job and right now he is enjoying sleeping late. I'm on the other side of the house with the tv on and I can hearing him snoring in the bedroom lol.
I am good I guess. My job gets to me sometimes. My boss has turned out to be a jerk 80% of the time and then we will have one good day where he says something like "I've got a good paralegal now," instead of looking at me and talking to me like I'm an idiot the rest of the time.
My projects are at a stand still. Lydia's room is done except for the wall painting and the slip cover for the chair. I've decided I'm not gonna do that though cause my sewing machine is on the fritz. I'll post pictures eventually. I'm staying right at my goal weight at 110. The diapers are just sitting there in pieces because, again, my sewing machine is one the fritz.
We have decided we are going to do something about Ava because she is just (as Delores says) a bad dog. She won't stay in the back yard. She has been pooping in the house. She disobeys. She growls at Delores when she gets near her food bowl. She tears things up in the house when we are gone so she has to either stay outside or stay in a crate. She has snapped at Delores before but she knows who is boss now. She freaks out when we put her in the car. She freaks out during thunderstorms and hides under the bed where she has hidden to poop or throw up before, and when Josh tries to get her out she snaps at him. She is just not the dog for us and we need to get rid of her. The problem is, who wants a dog like that? Also Delores really does like Ava, so I don't want to do anything with her until we can get another dog to replace her. I can't train another dog right now. So I think we have decided to wait till Lydia is walking and then it is good bye bad dog. She has no idea how good she has it.
Well, I have to go get Josh up because I have to get ready for my appointment and also because he is really starting to annoy me lol. Bye for now
Saturday, May 28, 2011
long time overdue
A lot has gone on since I last wrote. In fact I don't even know where to begin. I guess I should start off by saying this post started before mother's day weekend so It is all off on dates. I apologize for that.
Last week was pretty intense. Josh had to go to GA for training for FedEx and it was my first week of work. I didn't mention that Josh was gone to facebook or on here because I didn't want some surprise at my house while he was gone. Plus he took the computer so we could still talk and see each other via Skype. Which, I just have to say, must be the best invention since the iphone.
It was pretty stressful without Josh here, but I kind of liked it. I (and my mom) was amazed at how clean I can keep the house when there isn't a man in it lol. It isn't that he is unusually messy, it's just that since I didn't have anything to do, I cleaned. He got done early though and he was home Thursday afternoon and I got to see him after I got off work.
Work is up and down. I love the work but the work is crazy. I really need to be full-time to handle the work load but he thinks he doesn't have enough cases to keep me busy. Well maybe he doesn't have enough cases for a full-time paralegal, but he does have enough traffic for a full-time paralegal/receptionist. Seriously, I can't get any work done for answering phone calls, greeting clients, going to the post office and bank, and chasing after faxes. And the bad thing is that he thinks 24 hours a week is a perfect amount of time to do all this and work on 10 cases at one time. He complains about how unorganized his last paralegal was, but I am slowly starting to understand why the files are such a mess. No one, no matter how much experience (which she had a lot of) could do everything he wants done in 24 hours a week. Other than that though, I love the work I'm doing. I just have to get over this mommy brain and start remembering more things so I can stop being scolded every day.
So since I don't work Fridays and Josh got back early last week, we had a long weekend. It was like a mini vacation, except we didn't go anywhere. Friday we went to the park with the girl and had dinner with his dad. Saturday we did our grocery shopping and Sunday we went to church, had lunch, and then went shopping for work clothes. That was a pain again. I went to NY and comp. and found 4 shirts. Then we went to Khol's and I found absolutely nothing in my size. Then we went to Steinmart and I had the same problem. All I wanted to get my a high waisted pencil skirt and some pantyhose and new underwear. I got none of that. I really wanted to go to my favorite store (White House Black Market), but we ran out of time and had to get back so we could feed Delores and get the girls to bed. It was very frustrating. Josh and I joke that we have the same problem at different extremes. I have to go to expensive specialty stores because I'm so small and so does he because he is such a big guy. Huff.
Lydia is doing okay. She is still struggling with allergies and she is reacting to the dairy I'm eating again. I started introducing it last week into my diet and this week she started showing signs that she was having a reaction to it. So I'm back on a no dairy, no coffee diet. =( Other than those two things she is doing good. She weighs about 12 pounds now. She is sleeping about 10 hours at night and still eating about every 3 hours during the day. She isn't napping very well during the day but I think it's just because she is adjusting to me not being here 3 days a week.
Delores is about as good as a wild 16 month old can be. She is very whiny and spoiled and is having a hard time adjusting to me being gone. She is very clingy now and very demanding. She is testing how much she can get away with when my mom is watching her and honestly I can see her temperment and behavior going downhill fast. I'm afraid she's going to learn that whining and throwing fits are ways to get what she wants. I feel like we are slowly starting to became canidates for the Supernanny show.
This weekend we have a busy schedule once again. I was determined to finish doing my shopping because it is so frustrating to have to keep going out just to be let down. So I went to my store and then to Victoria's Secret and then I was done. After that I pick up his dad's truck and to Wendy's to get my man a large Frosty as a thank you for watching the girls while I did my thing. After I got back we went to TR for my Grandma's 86th birthday party/ Mother's day celebration. Then we are taking the truck over to my papa's vacant house and get their deep freezer for my 1350 ounces (and growing) of frozen breast milk. Then back home to put the girls to bed. Tomorrow we have church an lunch and then Josh is taking me out to dinner for mother's day. I refuse to relive the same Mother's day I had last year. Which had to have been the worst day of that year.
Last week was pretty intense. Josh had to go to GA for training for FedEx and it was my first week of work. I didn't mention that Josh was gone to facebook or on here because I didn't want some surprise at my house while he was gone. Plus he took the computer so we could still talk and see each other via Skype. Which, I just have to say, must be the best invention since the iphone.
It was pretty stressful without Josh here, but I kind of liked it. I (and my mom) was amazed at how clean I can keep the house when there isn't a man in it lol. It isn't that he is unusually messy, it's just that since I didn't have anything to do, I cleaned. He got done early though and he was home Thursday afternoon and I got to see him after I got off work.
Work is up and down. I love the work but the work is crazy. I really need to be full-time to handle the work load but he thinks he doesn't have enough cases to keep me busy. Well maybe he doesn't have enough cases for a full-time paralegal, but he does have enough traffic for a full-time paralegal/receptionist. Seriously, I can't get any work done for answering phone calls, greeting clients, going to the post office and bank, and chasing after faxes. And the bad thing is that he thinks 24 hours a week is a perfect amount of time to do all this and work on 10 cases at one time. He complains about how unorganized his last paralegal was, but I am slowly starting to understand why the files are such a mess. No one, no matter how much experience (which she had a lot of) could do everything he wants done in 24 hours a week. Other than that though, I love the work I'm doing. I just have to get over this mommy brain and start remembering more things so I can stop being scolded every day.
So since I don't work Fridays and Josh got back early last week, we had a long weekend. It was like a mini vacation, except we didn't go anywhere. Friday we went to the park with the girl and had dinner with his dad. Saturday we did our grocery shopping and Sunday we went to church, had lunch, and then went shopping for work clothes. That was a pain again. I went to NY and comp. and found 4 shirts. Then we went to Khol's and I found absolutely nothing in my size. Then we went to Steinmart and I had the same problem. All I wanted to get my a high waisted pencil skirt and some pantyhose and new underwear. I got none of that. I really wanted to go to my favorite store (White House Black Market), but we ran out of time and had to get back so we could feed Delores and get the girls to bed. It was very frustrating. Josh and I joke that we have the same problem at different extremes. I have to go to expensive specialty stores because I'm so small and so does he because he is such a big guy. Huff.
Lydia is doing okay. She is still struggling with allergies and she is reacting to the dairy I'm eating again. I started introducing it last week into my diet and this week she started showing signs that she was having a reaction to it. So I'm back on a no dairy, no coffee diet. =( Other than those two things she is doing good. She weighs about 12 pounds now. She is sleeping about 10 hours at night and still eating about every 3 hours during the day. She isn't napping very well during the day but I think it's just because she is adjusting to me not being here 3 days a week.
Delores is about as good as a wild 16 month old can be. She is very whiny and spoiled and is having a hard time adjusting to me being gone. She is very clingy now and very demanding. She is testing how much she can get away with when my mom is watching her and honestly I can see her temperment and behavior going downhill fast. I'm afraid she's going to learn that whining and throwing fits are ways to get what she wants. I feel like we are slowly starting to became canidates for the Supernanny show.
This weekend we have a busy schedule once again. I was determined to finish doing my shopping because it is so frustrating to have to keep going out just to be let down. So I went to my store and then to Victoria's Secret and then I was done. After that I pick up his dad's truck and to Wendy's to get my man a large Frosty as a thank you for watching the girls while I did my thing. After I got back we went to TR for my Grandma's 86th birthday party/ Mother's day celebration. Then we are taking the truck over to my papa's vacant house and get their deep freezer for my 1350 ounces (and growing) of frozen breast milk. Then back home to put the girls to bed. Tomorrow we have church an lunch and then Josh is taking me out to dinner for mother's day. I refuse to relive the same Mother's day I had last year. Which had to have been the worst day of that year.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Midnight and fig faced
So it's midnight and I'm up eating fig newtons like they are about to stop making them.
My neighbor's dog started barking off an on around 10 and really started picking up at 11:30. I had to wake poor Josh up to call our neighbor and see if he could put the dog up so she wouldn't wake the girls and I could get some sleep. At first I thought he was doing it to be spiteful because Ava got out today and terrorized the neighborhood. Turns out he wasn't even home. So I got up and came to watch some "Sex and the City," on my dvr till he get home and puts the dog up. Our bedroom window is right beside their backyard so I can't stay in the bedroom or I'd just get more and more frustrated with every bark.
So did you know I was an idiot? Apparently I had to go to work to see that. I don't even know where to begin. My boss is just one of those people you can't please no matter what you do. I do what he asks me to one day and then he complains because I did what he asked me to the next day. My confidence is dwindling and I'm afraid to speak to him because I'm tired of getting scolded for just doing what he asked me to do. I'm not a mind reader, you know? When I don't have confidence in myself my work goes to pot. I don't want to quit because I do like what I do and it is good experience and I need a good reference on my resume. But really, how long can I go on being talked to like I'm a kindergartner and keep a decent amount of good self esteem. Ugh. I guess I'm just going to have to develop some thick skin and throw it back at him.
Well the dog has stopped and that is all I have energy for tonight. Maybe I'll write tomorrow about my other daily adventures. We'll see. Goodnight
My neighbor's dog started barking off an on around 10 and really started picking up at 11:30. I had to wake poor Josh up to call our neighbor and see if he could put the dog up so she wouldn't wake the girls and I could get some sleep. At first I thought he was doing it to be spiteful because Ava got out today and terrorized the neighborhood. Turns out he wasn't even home. So I got up and came to watch some "Sex and the City," on my dvr till he get home and puts the dog up. Our bedroom window is right beside their backyard so I can't stay in the bedroom or I'd just get more and more frustrated with every bark.
So did you know I was an idiot? Apparently I had to go to work to see that. I don't even know where to begin. My boss is just one of those people you can't please no matter what you do. I do what he asks me to one day and then he complains because I did what he asked me to the next day. My confidence is dwindling and I'm afraid to speak to him because I'm tired of getting scolded for just doing what he asked me to do. I'm not a mind reader, you know? When I don't have confidence in myself my work goes to pot. I don't want to quit because I do like what I do and it is good experience and I need a good reference on my resume. But really, how long can I go on being talked to like I'm a kindergartner and keep a decent amount of good self esteem. Ugh. I guess I'm just going to have to develop some thick skin and throw it back at him.
Well the dog has stopped and that is all I have energy for tonight. Maybe I'll write tomorrow about my other daily adventures. We'll see. Goodnight
Thursday, April 21, 2011
government's control
Morning! Today is Thursday I think. This week has been so hectic it feels like it should be Friday or Saturday even, but no. It is only Thursday.
So yesterday my mom came to watch the babies with grandma because grandma couldn't watch even one baby by herself. I went to the health department to get a pap smear and talk to them about getting an IUD since we want to wait about 3 years before we try for a boy. Well they told me I could not get an IUD because I didn't want to wait at least 10 years before trying for another one. Well I can't use hormonal birth control and I'm allergic to latex so I guess our only option is to just keep having kids or sleep in separate bedrooms. Yes I know they make non latex contraceptives, but have you seen the price of those things? Beside we aren't very effective with those. How do you think we got Lydia so quickly? Anyway, it just reminded of how the government tries to control everything we do. Yeah we are suppose to be free people who get to have as many kids as we want when we want, but in actuality they don't want you to have any kids and try to guilt you into giving up your plans so you can get the contraceptive you want. The most frustrating thing about having kids is not the kids. It's the physicians, the government, and the family trying to influence you into thinking a different way. I called josh in the waiting room as I stared at the huge NO CELLPHONES sign and told him they wouldn't give me an IUD and he said "well I guess we will just have two more kids and they can pay for your and their medical care instead of giving you an IUD." Funny, but he's right. They could spend $500 to give me an IUD or they can spend about $20,000 for me to have two more kids. Ridiculous. Just keep an ear out and don't be surprised if I say "oops, I'm pregnant again," before the 3 years are up.
Today I got up at 6:30 because I wanted to get use to getting up earlier before I had to do it on Monday. It is different and I want to go back to bed so bad, but I have to do this so I might as well make the best of it. The hardest part is getting up and not drinking coffee to get me going. Josh was brewing a fresh pot this morning when I got up and it almost drove me crazy. Boo.
I don't really have any plans for today. My grandma is coming back over around 11 so I guess I'll just put up with her till she leaves. She has gotten a lot done around the house since she's been here. She's cleaned out my toaster oven and microwave, done about 4 loads of laundry, cleaned the hall bathroom, swept the house, and swept our front stoop. Today she plans to mop. I'll have to find something else for her to do, but I'm running out of stuff and we still have 4 days till she goes back home. I wonder if she'll wash my car or mow the grass? I'm just kidding. I wouldn't make her do that. Well if she asked me if she could I might let her. Lol.
Well I'm starting to get a headache from looking at the computer screen, but I'll write tomorrow if I can pull myself out of bed at 6:30 again.
Have a great Thursday!
So yesterday my mom came to watch the babies with grandma because grandma couldn't watch even one baby by herself. I went to the health department to get a pap smear and talk to them about getting an IUD since we want to wait about 3 years before we try for a boy. Well they told me I could not get an IUD because I didn't want to wait at least 10 years before trying for another one. Well I can't use hormonal birth control and I'm allergic to latex so I guess our only option is to just keep having kids or sleep in separate bedrooms. Yes I know they make non latex contraceptives, but have you seen the price of those things? Beside we aren't very effective with those. How do you think we got Lydia so quickly? Anyway, it just reminded of how the government tries to control everything we do. Yeah we are suppose to be free people who get to have as many kids as we want when we want, but in actuality they don't want you to have any kids and try to guilt you into giving up your plans so you can get the contraceptive you want. The most frustrating thing about having kids is not the kids. It's the physicians, the government, and the family trying to influence you into thinking a different way. I called josh in the waiting room as I stared at the huge NO CELLPHONES sign and told him they wouldn't give me an IUD and he said "well I guess we will just have two more kids and they can pay for your and their medical care instead of giving you an IUD." Funny, but he's right. They could spend $500 to give me an IUD or they can spend about $20,000 for me to have two more kids. Ridiculous. Just keep an ear out and don't be surprised if I say "oops, I'm pregnant again," before the 3 years are up.
Today I got up at 6:30 because I wanted to get use to getting up earlier before I had to do it on Monday. It is different and I want to go back to bed so bad, but I have to do this so I might as well make the best of it. The hardest part is getting up and not drinking coffee to get me going. Josh was brewing a fresh pot this morning when I got up and it almost drove me crazy. Boo.
I don't really have any plans for today. My grandma is coming back over around 11 so I guess I'll just put up with her till she leaves. She has gotten a lot done around the house since she's been here. She's cleaned out my toaster oven and microwave, done about 4 loads of laundry, cleaned the hall bathroom, swept the house, and swept our front stoop. Today she plans to mop. I'll have to find something else for her to do, but I'm running out of stuff and we still have 4 days till she goes back home. I wonder if she'll wash my car or mow the grass? I'm just kidding. I wouldn't make her do that. Well if she asked me if she could I might let her. Lol.
Well I'm starting to get a headache from looking at the computer screen, but I'll write tomorrow if I can pull myself out of bed at 6:30 again.
Have a great Thursday!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
just some thoughts
Good morning! It's been a while since I wrote so I'd just like to give an update on my life's adventures.
First of all I would like to say that I still do not apologize for my last post, but my life has taken a turn for the better. I mentioned that for once I would like things to really just be fine for me and now they almost are. I got a part time job working 24 hours a week. Three 8 hour days as a paralegal at Yokel law firm in downtown Greenville. I am really excited about this because I get to put my paralegal degree to good use after almost a year from when I graduated. I am also really nervous for that same reason. It has been almost a year since I used my legal jargon and had to think in a completely different way other than just being a mom. I hope I can remember everything I've learned and not make a fool out of myself and of the Greenville Tech paralegal program. I am ready for this next chapter in my life even though it is bittersweet. I was with Delores pretty much everyday of her 16 months of life. I will be missing 3 out of 7 days of Lydia's. I'm sure I will be fine once I get started though.
Also Josh did not have to go to training in Raleigh this week. He was the only person to sign up for the class so they canceled it. So he is schedule to go to training next week in Georgia instead. GE is still looking promising. Yesterday he had a series of computer tests he had to take and they will let him know if he goes on to the next test on Friday. If he gets the job he will be working as a welder which is something he really enjoys doing. So the next test involves actual welding. He is pretty excited about it, but we are still not getting our hopes up because we are not there yet. Either way we will be fine and grateful for what God has blessed us with.
As far as how things are going around the house. Well I have been sick for over a week and the girls have been sick since this weekend. Josh is fine of course. The man never gets sick, thank God. Lydia started sleeping 9 hours at a time at night so I'm getting a full nights sleep. She doesn't have colic anymore, but it is still hard to get her to sleep at night. It is getting better though. We normally are in bed by 10 so I can't really complain about that. I'll just be glad when she adjusts to an early bed time so Josh and I can get some "us," time again.
My grandmother is in town from Willmington, North Carolina and his always puts a bit of stress on me. She isn't a maternal person and won't even offer to change a diaper while she's here. She puts way more importance on cleanliness than I have time to do and always makes me feel guilty for not having a spotless house on top of taking care of two kids under 1 and a half years. But instead of getting stressed and trying to break my back and ignore the girls, I put her to work. If a spotless house is that important to her, she can clean it herself.
She also is very backwoods country and has absolutely no consideration for other peoples' lives. The other day We went to the grocery store and left her here and my brother and dad showed up while we were gone and let them in our house without us here. Our house is not a coffee shop for people to gather at and socialize when ever they want. She of course sees no problem with it and neither do they obviously. Just to give you an idea, she invited her entire family to my small backyard wedding. I didn't send them an invitation and they did come. Thankfully I had enough food and cake to cater to the extra mouths.
Another annoying thing she's been doing is that she wants to go with me to get some of my stuff out of my dad's basement before it gets ruined and she just assumes we can just jump in the car and go at any time. Well what am I suppose to do with the girls? Where am I going to put the boxes in my car and who is going to help me carry those heavy boxes? Oh well I guess we will figure that out when we get there.
She leaves on Monday and I will be counting down the days. I love her because she is my grandmother, but she has some many annoying habits she turns me into this frigid mean person whenever she is around. She has so many rude characteristics it would take a short novel to tell about them all. And she has been saying she is going to move back down here for the last 2 years. I'm to the point where I just want to say "well do it already or be quiet about it." Just like she claims she's going to stop giving my brother and dad money to live off of. Well I'm sick of hearing your sob stories of how they are sucking you dry. Just top giving them money already and be done with. Geeze. Anyway, I know this kind of turned into a grandma bashing post but she is always here so that is really all I have time to think about.
So life is good right now and we are so grateful. We are about to start new chapters in our lives and I can't wait and I would just like to say thank you to all of our family who have help us with the girls and been patient with us while I went back to school and been pregnant. Words cannot explain how grateful we are to have such a helpful family to get us through these years when we took the time to better ourselves and grow our family.
Have a good rest of the week everyone!
First of all I would like to say that I still do not apologize for my last post, but my life has taken a turn for the better. I mentioned that for once I would like things to really just be fine for me and now they almost are. I got a part time job working 24 hours a week. Three 8 hour days as a paralegal at Yokel law firm in downtown Greenville. I am really excited about this because I get to put my paralegal degree to good use after almost a year from when I graduated. I am also really nervous for that same reason. It has been almost a year since I used my legal jargon and had to think in a completely different way other than just being a mom. I hope I can remember everything I've learned and not make a fool out of myself and of the Greenville Tech paralegal program. I am ready for this next chapter in my life even though it is bittersweet. I was with Delores pretty much everyday of her 16 months of life. I will be missing 3 out of 7 days of Lydia's. I'm sure I will be fine once I get started though.
Also Josh did not have to go to training in Raleigh this week. He was the only person to sign up for the class so they canceled it. So he is schedule to go to training next week in Georgia instead. GE is still looking promising. Yesterday he had a series of computer tests he had to take and they will let him know if he goes on to the next test on Friday. If he gets the job he will be working as a welder which is something he really enjoys doing. So the next test involves actual welding. He is pretty excited about it, but we are still not getting our hopes up because we are not there yet. Either way we will be fine and grateful for what God has blessed us with.
As far as how things are going around the house. Well I have been sick for over a week and the girls have been sick since this weekend. Josh is fine of course. The man never gets sick, thank God. Lydia started sleeping 9 hours at a time at night so I'm getting a full nights sleep. She doesn't have colic anymore, but it is still hard to get her to sleep at night. It is getting better though. We normally are in bed by 10 so I can't really complain about that. I'll just be glad when she adjusts to an early bed time so Josh and I can get some "us," time again.
My grandmother is in town from Willmington, North Carolina and his always puts a bit of stress on me. She isn't a maternal person and won't even offer to change a diaper while she's here. She puts way more importance on cleanliness than I have time to do and always makes me feel guilty for not having a spotless house on top of taking care of two kids under 1 and a half years. But instead of getting stressed and trying to break my back and ignore the girls, I put her to work. If a spotless house is that important to her, she can clean it herself.
She also is very backwoods country and has absolutely no consideration for other peoples' lives. The other day We went to the grocery store and left her here and my brother and dad showed up while we were gone and let them in our house without us here. Our house is not a coffee shop for people to gather at and socialize when ever they want. She of course sees no problem with it and neither do they obviously. Just to give you an idea, she invited her entire family to my small backyard wedding. I didn't send them an invitation and they did come. Thankfully I had enough food and cake to cater to the extra mouths.
Another annoying thing she's been doing is that she wants to go with me to get some of my stuff out of my dad's basement before it gets ruined and she just assumes we can just jump in the car and go at any time. Well what am I suppose to do with the girls? Where am I going to put the boxes in my car and who is going to help me carry those heavy boxes? Oh well I guess we will figure that out when we get there.
She leaves on Monday and I will be counting down the days. I love her because she is my grandmother, but she has some many annoying habits she turns me into this frigid mean person whenever she is around. She has so many rude characteristics it would take a short novel to tell about them all. And she has been saying she is going to move back down here for the last 2 years. I'm to the point where I just want to say "well do it already or be quiet about it." Just like she claims she's going to stop giving my brother and dad money to live off of. Well I'm sick of hearing your sob stories of how they are sucking you dry. Just top giving them money already and be done with. Geeze. Anyway, I know this kind of turned into a grandma bashing post but she is always here so that is really all I have time to think about.
So life is good right now and we are so grateful. We are about to start new chapters in our lives and I can't wait and I would just like to say thank you to all of our family who have help us with the girls and been patient with us while I went back to school and been pregnant. Words cannot explain how grateful we are to have such a helpful family to get us through these years when we took the time to better ourselves and grow our family.
Have a good rest of the week everyone!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
the secret to loosing that baby weight
Every time I go out into public with Lydia people are always commenting on how I don't look like I just had a baby. Some are nice comments about how good I look or what my secret is. But some comments are actually mean. Like telling me to eat a cheeseburger or "geeze just gain an ounce already." So ladies I'm gonna tell you what the secret to my success is because obviously it is a secret.
1. Eat healthy when you are pregnant. It is a common misconception that you can eat whatever you want when you are pregnant. Well yeah you can, but you gotta work all those extra pounds off after you give birth. Yes I understand pregnant women have cravings. I craved frosties and pickles this last pregnancies, so I allowed myself a jr. frosty no more than 2 times a week and found another way to get my craving fix in a healthy way. Like chocolate milk for example.
2. Give birth naturally. C-sections don't release the same type of hormones that tell your body to get rid of all that extra stuff that came with being pregnant.
3. Breast feed and don't supplement under any circumstances for the first 6 weeks. During the first 6 weeks the new baby takes in all your stored up calories. If you don't breast feed or you supplement with formula then those calories just stay with you.
4. Eat a lot when you breast feed. If you try to diet while breast feeding your body will store calories much more easily because it wants to make sure you have enough calories to feed the baby and keep you healthy. In fact you may actually gain weight if you try to diet. I did when I tried to diet with Delores.
5. If you weren't skinny before you got pregnant you may not get skinny after you give birth. Except it and embrace it. Okay well that isn't a step or a secret but it's a fact.
So that's what I got. That's my little secret to loosing baby weight. But it really is no secret. Just use your body the way God intended you to and it'll just fall off.
1. Eat healthy when you are pregnant. It is a common misconception that you can eat whatever you want when you are pregnant. Well yeah you can, but you gotta work all those extra pounds off after you give birth. Yes I understand pregnant women have cravings. I craved frosties and pickles this last pregnancies, so I allowed myself a jr. frosty no more than 2 times a week and found another way to get my craving fix in a healthy way. Like chocolate milk for example.
2. Give birth naturally. C-sections don't release the same type of hormones that tell your body to get rid of all that extra stuff that came with being pregnant.
3. Breast feed and don't supplement under any circumstances for the first 6 weeks. During the first 6 weeks the new baby takes in all your stored up calories. If you don't breast feed or you supplement with formula then those calories just stay with you.
4. Eat a lot when you breast feed. If you try to diet while breast feeding your body will store calories much more easily because it wants to make sure you have enough calories to feed the baby and keep you healthy. In fact you may actually gain weight if you try to diet. I did when I tried to diet with Delores.
5. If you weren't skinny before you got pregnant you may not get skinny after you give birth. Except it and embrace it. Okay well that isn't a step or a secret but it's a fact.
So that's what I got. That's my little secret to loosing baby weight. But it really is no secret. Just use your body the way God intended you to and it'll just fall off.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
negative and I don't care
Hello folks! It's another day in the land of Lewis and one day closer to the weekend that I just realized Josh will be here for. Yay!
Yesterday was pretty good. Josh was training with a different guy that he was suppose to be filling in for next week when he got some interesting news. To get on at Fed Ex you have to have a years worth of truck driving experience. Well we thought he had that cover, but apparently the stipulation is that it has to have been within the last 3 years. He missed that deadline by just a few months. So we now have two options:
1. Go back to work for Hawkins for a few months, =0, and as Josh put it, would be a horrible idea.
2. Go to driving school in Raleigh, NC for an entire week, and leave me and the girls home alone. Oh and did I mention this just happens to be the same week my ill mannered, unhelpful, grandmother will be in town and at my house every...single...day.
Another twist on this is that about 2 months ago Josh applied to GE and just this past Friday, the day he quit Hawkins, they sent him an email saying they were interested.
So have decided to plan on driving school but still reply to GE. If GE doesn't offer by the time the trip comes, then it wasn't meant to be. We just feel that God has put this obstacle in our path for a reason and we have to give him the chance to show us what he wants us to do. Even though Fed Ex is a guaranteed job and he wouldn't miss a paycheck we still have to take a chance to be shown the way. Either way we will be happy and blessed.
The rest of my day, short of that unexpected news, was pretty good. Josh got home early at 3:30 just in time for Delores' daily meltdown. I really enjoyed have Josh home that early. Night time is always so much more chaotic with both babies screaming their demands.
Today was mixed. The first part of the day was not bad. My mom came over to watch Delores while I went to the health department to do WIC stuff for Lydia and she stayed till about 4:30. After she left things fell apart. Lydia wanted to fuss while I had to make Delores dinner and feed her dinner and give her a bath and put her to bed. Josh was not here to help out because he was training with his boss today on his route which takes two and a half hours longer than what we were promised. Yay. So I kind of fell apart. I'm just so sick of him not being here. For 7 months I kept my mouth shut about how I hated the hours he worked at Hawkins because I wanted him to be happy with what he was doing and now we are going through it again. I'm tired of being promised something like I'm being tricked into agreeing with this craziness and then being left to take care of the girls all day by myself. Yeah I'm happy Josh doesn't have to work every other weekend any more, but I'll be so tired and frustrated from practically being a single mother during the week all I'm going to want to do is be alone. What's that saying? A happy mom is a happy home? Yeah right. As long as every once else is happy with their lives that's all that matters. So Josh is in the living room doing his thing and I'm in the bedroom doing mine.
I guess only time will tell, but right now, sorry to say, I am just not in a positive mood about this whole thing. And you know what? I don't care that I'm not being all "oh it'll be okay. I'll just be strong and put on a smile and everything will be fine." Because every once in a while I just want everything to really, truely, be fine for me and not everyone around me.
Goodnight world.
Yesterday was pretty good. Josh was training with a different guy that he was suppose to be filling in for next week when he got some interesting news. To get on at Fed Ex you have to have a years worth of truck driving experience. Well we thought he had that cover, but apparently the stipulation is that it has to have been within the last 3 years. He missed that deadline by just a few months. So we now have two options:
1. Go back to work for Hawkins for a few months, =0, and as Josh put it, would be a horrible idea.
2. Go to driving school in Raleigh, NC for an entire week, and leave me and the girls home alone. Oh and did I mention this just happens to be the same week my ill mannered, unhelpful, grandmother will be in town and at my house every...single...day.
Another twist on this is that about 2 months ago Josh applied to GE and just this past Friday, the day he quit Hawkins, they sent him an email saying they were interested.
So have decided to plan on driving school but still reply to GE. If GE doesn't offer by the time the trip comes, then it wasn't meant to be. We just feel that God has put this obstacle in our path for a reason and we have to give him the chance to show us what he wants us to do. Even though Fed Ex is a guaranteed job and he wouldn't miss a paycheck we still have to take a chance to be shown the way. Either way we will be happy and blessed.
The rest of my day, short of that unexpected news, was pretty good. Josh got home early at 3:30 just in time for Delores' daily meltdown. I really enjoyed have Josh home that early. Night time is always so much more chaotic with both babies screaming their demands.
Today was mixed. The first part of the day was not bad. My mom came over to watch Delores while I went to the health department to do WIC stuff for Lydia and she stayed till about 4:30. After she left things fell apart. Lydia wanted to fuss while I had to make Delores dinner and feed her dinner and give her a bath and put her to bed. Josh was not here to help out because he was training with his boss today on his route which takes two and a half hours longer than what we were promised. Yay. So I kind of fell apart. I'm just so sick of him not being here. For 7 months I kept my mouth shut about how I hated the hours he worked at Hawkins because I wanted him to be happy with what he was doing and now we are going through it again. I'm tired of being promised something like I'm being tricked into agreeing with this craziness and then being left to take care of the girls all day by myself. Yeah I'm happy Josh doesn't have to work every other weekend any more, but I'll be so tired and frustrated from practically being a single mother during the week all I'm going to want to do is be alone. What's that saying? A happy mom is a happy home? Yeah right. As long as every once else is happy with their lives that's all that matters. So Josh is in the living room doing his thing and I'm in the bedroom doing mine.
I guess only time will tell, but right now, sorry to say, I am just not in a positive mood about this whole thing. And you know what? I don't care that I'm not being all "oh it'll be okay. I'll just be strong and put on a smile and everything will be fine." Because every once in a while I just want everything to really, truely, be fine for me and not everyone around me.
Goodnight world.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
project updates
Happy Tuesday!
Josh's first day of work went well. He trained with his dad so he had a pretty fun day. They always enjoy each others company no matter what they are doing. He got off around 3 and if it weren't for his errand running he would have been home by 3:30. He still got home by 5, so that was very nice. Usually I don't see him until sometime between 6 and 7. Today he is training with his dad again and should get home earlier than that. Although I'm not getting my hopes up. Things can come up to keep him from getting home early.
I got some phone calls made so I felt I accomplished some things. I still have to call G-ville Tech and see what the hold up is on my degree. We owed them money so I didn't get it right after I finished up my classes, but we paid them about a month ago and still have not heard anything about it. They said they were going to mail out blue card when it was ready to be picked up, but so far, no blue card.
Lydia had another good night and we were in bed by 10 again. So I'm pretty sure the culprit of the screaming at night was coffee. She slept until 3:30 and then go up this morning at 7:30. I'm having it pretty easy with her compare to Delores now that we've discovered what all the screaming was about. I can't help but feel a little guilty though because she still sleeps all the time during the day. I feel like I should be stimulating her somehow, but she never seems to be awake long enough to do anything with her. I feel bad, but the poor girl hasn't even had a bath in a week because she's either asleep or I'm busy with Delores.
Well there wasn't much else to report, but I did want to give an update on all my projects.
1. breast milk supplies: I have about 900 ounces of frozen breastmilk in my freezer and in Josh's parents' freezer now. We will be getting a deep freezer from my papa's house since no one is living in it anymore. We just have to run electricity out to our storage building.
2. Diapers: I am still cutting patterns. I have everything cut out for my inserts and can sew them, but I think I'll wait till everything is ready to be sewn so i don't lug out the sewing machine and then have to put it back up every so often to use the space for cutting.
3. Lydia's room: I have one wall completely done. I fixed my color screw up with the wall painting and now it is just ready for details. I still have to get a shelf for the wall with her closet on it. You wouldn't believe how hard it is to find a floating oak shelf about 36 inches long. Also I decided that since Lydia is too young to use her comforter and it is warm weather that I would hang her comforter on the wall over her changing table. I got the curtain rod to do that. I just have to sew a sleeve on the back of the comforter to slip it through. And I also have to make a slipcover for the rocking chair. Still a big work in progress but it is coming along good and it is now my favorite room in the house.
4. Weight loss: I am stagnant as of right now. I still have about 5 or 6 pounds to loose to reach my goal weight, but I'll get there. In time.
Well I hope everyone has a good day.
Josh's first day of work went well. He trained with his dad so he had a pretty fun day. They always enjoy each others company no matter what they are doing. He got off around 3 and if it weren't for his errand running he would have been home by 3:30. He still got home by 5, so that was very nice. Usually I don't see him until sometime between 6 and 7. Today he is training with his dad again and should get home earlier than that. Although I'm not getting my hopes up. Things can come up to keep him from getting home early.
I got some phone calls made so I felt I accomplished some things. I still have to call G-ville Tech and see what the hold up is on my degree. We owed them money so I didn't get it right after I finished up my classes, but we paid them about a month ago and still have not heard anything about it. They said they were going to mail out blue card when it was ready to be picked up, but so far, no blue card.
Lydia had another good night and we were in bed by 10 again. So I'm pretty sure the culprit of the screaming at night was coffee. She slept until 3:30 and then go up this morning at 7:30. I'm having it pretty easy with her compare to Delores now that we've discovered what all the screaming was about. I can't help but feel a little guilty though because she still sleeps all the time during the day. I feel like I should be stimulating her somehow, but she never seems to be awake long enough to do anything with her. I feel bad, but the poor girl hasn't even had a bath in a week because she's either asleep or I'm busy with Delores.
Well there wasn't much else to report, but I did want to give an update on all my projects.
1. breast milk supplies: I have about 900 ounces of frozen breastmilk in my freezer and in Josh's parents' freezer now. We will be getting a deep freezer from my papa's house since no one is living in it anymore. We just have to run electricity out to our storage building.
2. Diapers: I am still cutting patterns. I have everything cut out for my inserts and can sew them, but I think I'll wait till everything is ready to be sewn so i don't lug out the sewing machine and then have to put it back up every so often to use the space for cutting.
3. Lydia's room: I have one wall completely done. I fixed my color screw up with the wall painting and now it is just ready for details. I still have to get a shelf for the wall with her closet on it. You wouldn't believe how hard it is to find a floating oak shelf about 36 inches long. Also I decided that since Lydia is too young to use her comforter and it is warm weather that I would hang her comforter on the wall over her changing table. I got the curtain rod to do that. I just have to sew a sleeve on the back of the comforter to slip it through. And I also have to make a slipcover for the rocking chair. Still a big work in progress but it is coming along good and it is now my favorite room in the house.
4. Weight loss: I am stagnant as of right now. I still have about 5 or 6 pounds to loose to reach my goal weight, but I'll get there. In time.
Well I hope everyone has a good day.
Monday, April 4, 2011
the colic mystery solved?
Well another weekend has come and gone. It seems like it almost didn't happen it went by so quickly.
Friday went pretty well. Josh got home early because it was his last day. Yes he is officially not working for Hawkins Towing anymore. We just couldn't take the hours he was working so he found a job at Fed Ex driving for a guy there. It's something he always wanted to do and now he's doing it and I'm proud of him for making it work. Now he can be happy that he is doing something he loves and i can be happy that he will be working normal hours and will get to see the girls.
Saturday was Josh's birthday celebration day and I finally decided I was going to go, but then we realized that in order for us to get back to cook dinner and eat at a decent hour we would have to leave around 10. Well miss Delores takes a nap at 11:30 and doesn't get up till 1, so that kind of meant that I had to stay home to make sure she got her nap. Otherwise she would've gone all day with out one. So he and his dad went by themselves and they had a great time. Delores' second cousin Kayla was up from Columbia and wanted to keep her so she went with her around 2. Josh got home shortly after that and we kind of piddled around the house till it was time for me to cook. Then we had an amazing dinner and dessert.
Sunday we went to church, had lunch, went to walmart, came home and did some cleaning. We had a little scare with Delores. She was walking around eating grapes and got choked. I guess it went down the wrong way or something because she was coughing but she couldn't get it up. When Josh and I went over to help her she puked on Josh's hand. I grabbed her before she was done and kind of help her over the floor so she wouldn't puke all over her shirt and then I took her to the tub to clean her up. I was pretty impressed with the way I handled myself. I've always had a phobia of vomit, but I guess when it's your kid your instincts just kind of take over and you don't have time to think about it. After I got her all cleaned up and made sure she wasn't traumatized I cleaned up the puke. Something I never thought I would ever be able to do either. The rest of the day went good and we got to bed at a decent hour. Oh and Ava got out of the fence while we were gone. I'm not sure how. She's a digger so we keep her on a chain and everything was still intact and she was still wearing her collar, but we couldn't get her to come back in. We would call her or get close to her and she would just turn around and run. I got up this morning to feed Lydia and she still wouldn't come in at 5 am. She finally showed up at 2 pm this afternoon and she went straight in her cage without her bed. It wouldn't be such a big deal if she weren't such a bully but she prances around the neighborhood barking at neighbors in their own yards. It's so embarrassing and there is nothing I can do about it. Sometimes I really wish I could give her away but she is such a priss I doubt anyone would take her. Oh well
Delores has been very whiney lately. She throws a fit for everything and I'm starting to wonder if there is reason why. Like maybe she is get to do something other places that I won't let her do at the house. Like flipping over on the changing table or trying to take my glasses off my face or wanting to be picked up all the time or not wanting to sit in her high chair to eat. I don't know, but she is throwing fits about every 3 minutes. It really is ridiculous.
Lydia is doing much better. I finally cut my coffee out Saturday when Josh was here to help me in the morning and I could tell a huge improvement that day. That night and last night we were in bed by 10 with hardly any crying at all. Today is day 3 of no coffee so we will see how tonight goes. I cheated on my no dairy diet because Josh's birthday dinner was just one big cow product Saturday night, and I think I'm paying for it today a little.
This week I don't really have any plans. I have to make some phone calls and set up some appointments, but it should be a pretty boring week. Hope everyone else's week is as laid back as mine!
Friday went pretty well. Josh got home early because it was his last day. Yes he is officially not working for Hawkins Towing anymore. We just couldn't take the hours he was working so he found a job at Fed Ex driving for a guy there. It's something he always wanted to do and now he's doing it and I'm proud of him for making it work. Now he can be happy that he is doing something he loves and i can be happy that he will be working normal hours and will get to see the girls.
Saturday was Josh's birthday celebration day and I finally decided I was going to go, but then we realized that in order for us to get back to cook dinner and eat at a decent hour we would have to leave around 10. Well miss Delores takes a nap at 11:30 and doesn't get up till 1, so that kind of meant that I had to stay home to make sure she got her nap. Otherwise she would've gone all day with out one. So he and his dad went by themselves and they had a great time. Delores' second cousin Kayla was up from Columbia and wanted to keep her so she went with her around 2. Josh got home shortly after that and we kind of piddled around the house till it was time for me to cook. Then we had an amazing dinner and dessert.
Sunday we went to church, had lunch, went to walmart, came home and did some cleaning. We had a little scare with Delores. She was walking around eating grapes and got choked. I guess it went down the wrong way or something because she was coughing but she couldn't get it up. When Josh and I went over to help her she puked on Josh's hand. I grabbed her before she was done and kind of help her over the floor so she wouldn't puke all over her shirt and then I took her to the tub to clean her up. I was pretty impressed with the way I handled myself. I've always had a phobia of vomit, but I guess when it's your kid your instincts just kind of take over and you don't have time to think about it. After I got her all cleaned up and made sure she wasn't traumatized I cleaned up the puke. Something I never thought I would ever be able to do either. The rest of the day went good and we got to bed at a decent hour. Oh and Ava got out of the fence while we were gone. I'm not sure how. She's a digger so we keep her on a chain and everything was still intact and she was still wearing her collar, but we couldn't get her to come back in. We would call her or get close to her and she would just turn around and run. I got up this morning to feed Lydia and she still wouldn't come in at 5 am. She finally showed up at 2 pm this afternoon and she went straight in her cage without her bed. It wouldn't be such a big deal if she weren't such a bully but she prances around the neighborhood barking at neighbors in their own yards. It's so embarrassing and there is nothing I can do about it. Sometimes I really wish I could give her away but she is such a priss I doubt anyone would take her. Oh well
Delores has been very whiney lately. She throws a fit for everything and I'm starting to wonder if there is reason why. Like maybe she is get to do something other places that I won't let her do at the house. Like flipping over on the changing table or trying to take my glasses off my face or wanting to be picked up all the time or not wanting to sit in her high chair to eat. I don't know, but she is throwing fits about every 3 minutes. It really is ridiculous.
Lydia is doing much better. I finally cut my coffee out Saturday when Josh was here to help me in the morning and I could tell a huge improvement that day. That night and last night we were in bed by 10 with hardly any crying at all. Today is day 3 of no coffee so we will see how tonight goes. I cheated on my no dairy diet because Josh's birthday dinner was just one big cow product Saturday night, and I think I'm paying for it today a little.
This week I don't really have any plans. I have to make some phone calls and set up some appointments, but it should be a pretty boring week. Hope everyone else's week is as laid back as mine!
Friday, April 1, 2011
weeks update
TGIF! The week is finally almost over and I get to spend time with my family this weekend. I am so looking forward to that.
Just a quick update (or maybe not so quick if I do my normal rambling).
Monday the Prince concert was amazing although we did have a little frustration with getting in the door. My mom had to go all the way back to the car to put up her camera and I had to wait on her so we could get our tickets switch from the Bilo center's screw up. If I didn't wait on her we wouldn't have been able to sit together. After about and hour and a half after the opening act started we were finally getting to our seats and Prince was just coming out. I couldn't believe how professional it was, but it was Prince. I guess I shouldn't have expected it any other way.
Tuesday Lydia had her check up and every thing was good. She weighed 10 pounds 5 ounces and we discussed her colic. She suggested I make some fennel tea to give her ever few hours and to give her some baby probiotics a couple times a day to see if that helped. The fennel tea has seemed to help a little when I can actually get her to drink some. But she hates the taste so she only gets about a quarter of an ounce down instead of the recommended 1 ounce. We are still getting to bed pretty late, but last night she slept for 7 hours straight, so when we can actually get her to sleep she does okay. Our only other option is to take her to Dr. Stafford and get him to give her Zantax (not recommended for all colic but Amy feels she may have some acid reflux based on her BM's). I'm still not eating dairy and I'm trying really hard to cut out my coffee. So we will just wait and see I guess.
Wednesday my dad did come to clean our living room furniture and the girls' carpet. So I feel much better knowing that I, my family, and company aren't sitting on gross furniture. Especially Ava's couch. That dog stays so dirty.
Thursday Andrea, Josh's sister, came over for a little while so I could run to the store to pick up a few items for Josh's birthday dinner and dessert. I started making the dessert (oreo cheesecake) and I will finish it today.
Today I will try to prep for Josh's dinner and have all that stuff squared away so maybe I can go with him to the shooting range. I am still iffy about leaving Lydia so I'm still not sure if I am going to go. I may just have some time to myself since after today josh will no longer ever have to be on call. Which means he will be with me every weekend. Don't get me wrong I am happy about it, but it is nice to have some time to myself without worrying about pleasing everyone else.
Well Delores is done with her breakfast so I better get back to motherhood. Have a good Friday, and if I don't tell ya this weekend, have a fantastic weekend.
Just a quick update (or maybe not so quick if I do my normal rambling).
Monday the Prince concert was amazing although we did have a little frustration with getting in the door. My mom had to go all the way back to the car to put up her camera and I had to wait on her so we could get our tickets switch from the Bilo center's screw up. If I didn't wait on her we wouldn't have been able to sit together. After about and hour and a half after the opening act started we were finally getting to our seats and Prince was just coming out. I couldn't believe how professional it was, but it was Prince. I guess I shouldn't have expected it any other way.
Tuesday Lydia had her check up and every thing was good. She weighed 10 pounds 5 ounces and we discussed her colic. She suggested I make some fennel tea to give her ever few hours and to give her some baby probiotics a couple times a day to see if that helped. The fennel tea has seemed to help a little when I can actually get her to drink some. But she hates the taste so she only gets about a quarter of an ounce down instead of the recommended 1 ounce. We are still getting to bed pretty late, but last night she slept for 7 hours straight, so when we can actually get her to sleep she does okay. Our only other option is to take her to Dr. Stafford and get him to give her Zantax (not recommended for all colic but Amy feels she may have some acid reflux based on her BM's). I'm still not eating dairy and I'm trying really hard to cut out my coffee. So we will just wait and see I guess.
Wednesday my dad did come to clean our living room furniture and the girls' carpet. So I feel much better knowing that I, my family, and company aren't sitting on gross furniture. Especially Ava's couch. That dog stays so dirty.
Thursday Andrea, Josh's sister, came over for a little while so I could run to the store to pick up a few items for Josh's birthday dinner and dessert. I started making the dessert (oreo cheesecake) and I will finish it today.
Today I will try to prep for Josh's dinner and have all that stuff squared away so maybe I can go with him to the shooting range. I am still iffy about leaving Lydia so I'm still not sure if I am going to go. I may just have some time to myself since after today josh will no longer ever have to be on call. Which means he will be with me every weekend. Don't get me wrong I am happy about it, but it is nice to have some time to myself without worrying about pleasing everyone else.
Well Delores is done with her breakfast so I better get back to motherhood. Have a good Friday, and if I don't tell ya this weekend, have a fantastic weekend.
Monday, March 28, 2011
start of a busy week
Morning all! Today is Monday after a long weekend and I'm excited to get this week started and over with.
Overall the weekend went pretty well. My in laws came and got Delores Saturday and I got some cleaning done around the house. Bathrooms, sweeping and moping, and just putting away stuff that accumulates throughout the week. I also went to Target, even though I thought I was just gonna stay inside because of the nasty weather. I got a hamper, a night light, a lampshade, and a piggy bank for Lydia's room. I got Delores 2 summer outfits and I bought myself more breast milk storage bags and a closet organizer that holds shoes since our shoes usually flow out into the middle of our bedroom floor or into the foyer. After I got back from Target I got all that stuff unpacked and put away and worked on Lydia's wall painting fr a little while. I got the outline drawn on the wall and then took a break. After all that it was close to 7 and I had to put Delores to bed and start consoling Lydia from her nightly screaming fit.
Yesterday was Josh's birthday, but he was on call and didn't get to do anything really for it. Josh's mom and sister came and got Delores for church since I can't seem to get ready in time with two little ones and I can't get them both out of the house at the same time. I worked on diapers till it was time for church to get out and then I headed over to "Stax's," to meet some of Josh's family from out of town for lunch. Shortly after I got there my wild one and her entourage showed up and all 14 of us visited for about 2 hours. Delores still wasn't feeling well and it was time for her nap so she was throwing fits left and right. I had a lot of help taking her mind of her unhappiness though so I didn't get too stressed out by her behavior. Josh was able to show up right after we got our food and he got to eat with us and be embarrassed by a huge piece of chocolate mouse cake, a birthday candle, and some loud "happy birthday," singers. Then we left and came home. Delores took a very short nap and then we did our normal play, dinner, bath, bed routine. After she went to bed I started working on the wall painting again and got a good chunk of it done. However, for the life of me I could not think of how to mix brown, so after it dried and I stared at it for a long time I decided I hated the color and now I have to repaint it. It will just bug me to death if I don't. I "bing(ed)," how to mix brown paint though, so I'm good and I'll get it right this time. lol. I just don't know when I'm gonna get around to it. Besides that Lydia's room is so cute. I have to get a shelf, finish painting the wall, put up some picture frames, paint a lamp, and make a slipcover for the rocking chair, but other than that the nursery is almost done. lol. Well the big stuff is in there. I'm just working on the accessories now. Lydia did good and we didn't have any screaming that night so I got a lot done. Which I will have to redo again. lol.
So this week is going to be pretty eventful. Today I am going to see "Prince," with my mom while Josh takes care of the girls. Tomorrow Lydia has her 6 week check up with Amy. Wednesday my dad is suppose to come and clean the carpets in the girls' rooms and our living room furniture (he steam cleans carpets for a living). Thursday and Friday I think I'm clear and then Saturday is Josh's birthday celebration day. We still aren't sure if I will be going with him to the shooting range yet because I have to make him dinner, but I'm gonna try to make it work where I have everything prepped and ready to just throw together or just pop in the over after we get home. We will see. I'm so excite to see Josh's reaction when I give him his gun though. He is going to be so surprised. Yay! Okay, so anyway, Sunday is church and then Monday something else very exciting happens, but I can't say just yet what it is. I will say that Josh won't have to work weekends anymore after Monday. =)
Well it is time to start our day. Poor Delores is in her room coughing and being miserable. I hate it when my kids are sick. I hope they feel better soon. Have a good Monday everyone!
Overall the weekend went pretty well. My in laws came and got Delores Saturday and I got some cleaning done around the house. Bathrooms, sweeping and moping, and just putting away stuff that accumulates throughout the week. I also went to Target, even though I thought I was just gonna stay inside because of the nasty weather. I got a hamper, a night light, a lampshade, and a piggy bank for Lydia's room. I got Delores 2 summer outfits and I bought myself more breast milk storage bags and a closet organizer that holds shoes since our shoes usually flow out into the middle of our bedroom floor or into the foyer. After I got back from Target I got all that stuff unpacked and put away and worked on Lydia's wall painting fr a little while. I got the outline drawn on the wall and then took a break. After all that it was close to 7 and I had to put Delores to bed and start consoling Lydia from her nightly screaming fit.
Yesterday was Josh's birthday, but he was on call and didn't get to do anything really for it. Josh's mom and sister came and got Delores for church since I can't seem to get ready in time with two little ones and I can't get them both out of the house at the same time. I worked on diapers till it was time for church to get out and then I headed over to "Stax's," to meet some of Josh's family from out of town for lunch. Shortly after I got there my wild one and her entourage showed up and all 14 of us visited for about 2 hours. Delores still wasn't feeling well and it was time for her nap so she was throwing fits left and right. I had a lot of help taking her mind of her unhappiness though so I didn't get too stressed out by her behavior. Josh was able to show up right after we got our food and he got to eat with us and be embarrassed by a huge piece of chocolate mouse cake, a birthday candle, and some loud "happy birthday," singers. Then we left and came home. Delores took a very short nap and then we did our normal play, dinner, bath, bed routine. After she went to bed I started working on the wall painting again and got a good chunk of it done. However, for the life of me I could not think of how to mix brown, so after it dried and I stared at it for a long time I decided I hated the color and now I have to repaint it. It will just bug me to death if I don't. I "bing(ed)," how to mix brown paint though, so I'm good and I'll get it right this time. lol. I just don't know when I'm gonna get around to it. Besides that Lydia's room is so cute. I have to get a shelf, finish painting the wall, put up some picture frames, paint a lamp, and make a slipcover for the rocking chair, but other than that the nursery is almost done. lol. Well the big stuff is in there. I'm just working on the accessories now. Lydia did good and we didn't have any screaming that night so I got a lot done. Which I will have to redo again. lol.
So this week is going to be pretty eventful. Today I am going to see "Prince," with my mom while Josh takes care of the girls. Tomorrow Lydia has her 6 week check up with Amy. Wednesday my dad is suppose to come and clean the carpets in the girls' rooms and our living room furniture (he steam cleans carpets for a living). Thursday and Friday I think I'm clear and then Saturday is Josh's birthday celebration day. We still aren't sure if I will be going with him to the shooting range yet because I have to make him dinner, but I'm gonna try to make it work where I have everything prepped and ready to just throw together or just pop in the over after we get home. We will see. I'm so excite to see Josh's reaction when I give him his gun though. He is going to be so surprised. Yay! Okay, so anyway, Sunday is church and then Monday something else very exciting happens, but I can't say just yet what it is. I will say that Josh won't have to work weekends anymore after Monday. =)
Well it is time to start our day. Poor Delores is in her room coughing and being miserable. I hate it when my kids are sick. I hope they feel better soon. Have a good Monday everyone!
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Morning. It's Saturday and Josh is on call. It is also raining and nasty outside so today it not going to be very fun.
I don't really have much to say except that if I offended anyone yesterday, I'm sorry. I was having an off day yesterday and I don't know if it's because of the hormones or the lack of sleep but I just wasn't that nice of a person. So I apologize and hope to carry on without that attitude for today.
Also today my in laws are taking Delores for a little while so I can get some stuff done around the house. I have to go to target and get some stuff and then I have to come back here and clean, work on Lydia's room, and work on diapers. It's gonna be a busy busy day. I just hope Lydia lets me get the majority of it done. Yesterday she slept most of the day until about 4 and then she started getting fussy. It really wasn't that bad until about 7 and then the crying began. I gave her some gripe water and that seemed to help for a little while and then she started crying again till about 9. She got up at 3 to eat and she was coughing and sneezing and was congested so now I have two babies suffering from allergies. At least that's what i hope it is.
Well Lydia is calling. Hope yall have a good day!
I don't really have much to say except that if I offended anyone yesterday, I'm sorry. I was having an off day yesterday and I don't know if it's because of the hormones or the lack of sleep but I just wasn't that nice of a person. So I apologize and hope to carry on without that attitude for today.
Also today my in laws are taking Delores for a little while so I can get some stuff done around the house. I have to go to target and get some stuff and then I have to come back here and clean, work on Lydia's room, and work on diapers. It's gonna be a busy busy day. I just hope Lydia lets me get the majority of it done. Yesterday she slept most of the day until about 4 and then she started getting fussy. It really wasn't that bad until about 7 and then the crying began. I gave her some gripe water and that seemed to help for a little while and then she started crying again till about 9. She got up at 3 to eat and she was coughing and sneezing and was congested so now I have two babies suffering from allergies. At least that's what i hope it is.
Well Lydia is calling. Hope yall have a good day!
Friday, March 25, 2011
5 weeks old, 15 months old
It's funny how mothers define the time of year by the age of their children. This isn't the first week of spring or even the 25th of March. It is the week Lydia is 5 weeks old and the month that Delores turns 15 months old. lol
So it has been a long while since I was able to write. The Lewis household has been in a whirlwind. We had my birthday celebration day. Which was really just a bunch of errand running that never gets done because I have the babies and Josh is never home. We did get all of Lydia's stuff for her nursery though so I was glad I got that taken care of. I also got a new pair of shoes from the "White House Black Market." So I got my new shoe fix for the year. And we went to Saskatoon's for dinner. I wanted to try someplace new. I got the duck and it was AWESOME! lol. We had a couple of pieces of duck when we went to the "Melting Pot," for our Valentine's day and we fell in love with it. Anyway, that's about all we did, but to make up for not really doing anything Josh got me Prince tickets so that is what I'm doing for my birthday.
Josh's birthday is on Sunday and the poor man is on call. He told me this morning another driver quit (surprise surprise) so it is just him and one other person on this weekend. He's going to be run ragged. April 2nd is his birthday celebration day. We are going to the shooting range to go skeet shooting. He doesn't know it yet, but he will also be pistol shooting. His 9mm got stolen out of his car about a year ago and he's been very upset about it. So I asked my step dad to find him another one and he pulled through. But it's a surprise, so shhhh! lol. I will also be making him diner and a cheesecake for his birthday.
Delores has been doing good. Just as wild as ever. She is having some allergy problems with all this pollen, but she is still a pistol. We made the decision to wean her off the bottle Saturday and we went cold turkey. The first night she threw a fit for about 2 hours. The next morning she threw a fit and then got over it. Since then she's been fine and we are now on day 6 without a bottle and never looking back.
Lydia is doing good. She was 10 pounds last week at her 1 month check up with Dr. Stafford and this Tuesday she has her 6 week checkup with Amy (my midwife). I think she'll probably weigh around 11 pounds. She's my little chunker. lol. We have given up on finding any other pediatrician because they either don't take our insurance or they insist on vaccinating your children or they won't see you. Insane policies. You try to do what you think is right for your kids and they force you to do what they want anyway. Well I'm standing my ground and the can kiss my behind. It's not a law and it's Josh and my own personal conviction not to vaccinate. We will not be forced to follow someone else's beliefs. At least Dr. Stafford supports our decision even if sometimes he does seem old fashioned and impersonal. Anyway, we think Lydia has colic. For about 2 weeks now she he been screaming from about 7 until it stops for no reason at all. I've tried to cut out dairy in my diet but everything has some form of dairy in it. The only thing I can really eat is meat and veggies with no butter. I haven't been very successful so I don't know if it's helping, but I'm gonna keep trying. We also got Lydia's crib and dresser together and moved her into her room and she has been doing well when we can finally get her to sleep. I'll post pictures when I get her nursery completely done. We still have one corner filled with junk and laundry baskets to get out of there. We have to take down the pack n play to fit those back in our room, which will happen this weekend I hope.
I am doing good. I'm 5 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight. I'm still pumping and stocking breast milk like crazy. I have almost 600 ounces (4.68 gallons) of breast milk in our freezer. It's getting crazy. I don't know what I'm gonna do with all of it. I'm still in the process of making diapers. When I get a chance I cut out some patterns here and there but I am still pretty far from sewing them. I did get all but 4 of Delores' bumgenius diapers converted from velcro to snaps. I have to wash the other 4 before I can do that. I am giving those to Lydia and the new ones to Delores because the new ones are bigger. So after I get those other 4 washed I'll be putting Lydia in cloth. Maybe by Monday. Delores will have to wait a little while longer.
Yesterday we went to my papa's funeral. It was pretty sad, but we had been preparing for it for a while so it wasn't as bad as it could have been. He died Monday night after I and the girls left the nursing home. They said they felt like he was just hanging on the see someone so my brother went up Sunday and I went up Monday. It was the first time he "saw," Delores walk and "saw," Lydia. I say "saw," because it was like he was in a coma with his eyes open. But about 5 hours after we left he passed away. I am just glad that he got to see me accomplish some things in my life. I always said that I wanted him to see me get married and have kids before he died and he did. So I couldn't ask for more. I honored him by giving Delores his name as her middle name and I am honored to be named after him also. He lived a good 90 years and I am glad that I inherited so much from him. I will miss him, but he is in a better place, watching over us and taking care of us in a way he never could if he were still here on this earth.
So that's what has been going on with us for the last 2 weeks I guess. Hope all is well with everyone else! Back to motherhood I go.
So it has been a long while since I was able to write. The Lewis household has been in a whirlwind. We had my birthday celebration day. Which was really just a bunch of errand running that never gets done because I have the babies and Josh is never home. We did get all of Lydia's stuff for her nursery though so I was glad I got that taken care of. I also got a new pair of shoes from the "White House Black Market." So I got my new shoe fix for the year. And we went to Saskatoon's for dinner. I wanted to try someplace new. I got the duck and it was AWESOME! lol. We had a couple of pieces of duck when we went to the "Melting Pot," for our Valentine's day and we fell in love with it. Anyway, that's about all we did, but to make up for not really doing anything Josh got me Prince tickets so that is what I'm doing for my birthday.
Josh's birthday is on Sunday and the poor man is on call. He told me this morning another driver quit (surprise surprise) so it is just him and one other person on this weekend. He's going to be run ragged. April 2nd is his birthday celebration day. We are going to the shooting range to go skeet shooting. He doesn't know it yet, but he will also be pistol shooting. His 9mm got stolen out of his car about a year ago and he's been very upset about it. So I asked my step dad to find him another one and he pulled through. But it's a surprise, so shhhh! lol. I will also be making him diner and a cheesecake for his birthday.
Delores has been doing good. Just as wild as ever. She is having some allergy problems with all this pollen, but she is still a pistol. We made the decision to wean her off the bottle Saturday and we went cold turkey. The first night she threw a fit for about 2 hours. The next morning she threw a fit and then got over it. Since then she's been fine and we are now on day 6 without a bottle and never looking back.
Lydia is doing good. She was 10 pounds last week at her 1 month check up with Dr. Stafford and this Tuesday she has her 6 week checkup with Amy (my midwife). I think she'll probably weigh around 11 pounds. She's my little chunker. lol. We have given up on finding any other pediatrician because they either don't take our insurance or they insist on vaccinating your children or they won't see you. Insane policies. You try to do what you think is right for your kids and they force you to do what they want anyway. Well I'm standing my ground and the can kiss my behind. It's not a law and it's Josh and my own personal conviction not to vaccinate. We will not be forced to follow someone else's beliefs. At least Dr. Stafford supports our decision even if sometimes he does seem old fashioned and impersonal. Anyway, we think Lydia has colic. For about 2 weeks now she he been screaming from about 7 until it stops for no reason at all. I've tried to cut out dairy in my diet but everything has some form of dairy in it. The only thing I can really eat is meat and veggies with no butter. I haven't been very successful so I don't know if it's helping, but I'm gonna keep trying. We also got Lydia's crib and dresser together and moved her into her room and she has been doing well when we can finally get her to sleep. I'll post pictures when I get her nursery completely done. We still have one corner filled with junk and laundry baskets to get out of there. We have to take down the pack n play to fit those back in our room, which will happen this weekend I hope.
I am doing good. I'm 5 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight. I'm still pumping and stocking breast milk like crazy. I have almost 600 ounces (4.68 gallons) of breast milk in our freezer. It's getting crazy. I don't know what I'm gonna do with all of it. I'm still in the process of making diapers. When I get a chance I cut out some patterns here and there but I am still pretty far from sewing them. I did get all but 4 of Delores' bumgenius diapers converted from velcro to snaps. I have to wash the other 4 before I can do that. I am giving those to Lydia and the new ones to Delores because the new ones are bigger. So after I get those other 4 washed I'll be putting Lydia in cloth. Maybe by Monday. Delores will have to wait a little while longer.
Yesterday we went to my papa's funeral. It was pretty sad, but we had been preparing for it for a while so it wasn't as bad as it could have been. He died Monday night after I and the girls left the nursing home. They said they felt like he was just hanging on the see someone so my brother went up Sunday and I went up Monday. It was the first time he "saw," Delores walk and "saw," Lydia. I say "saw," because it was like he was in a coma with his eyes open. But about 5 hours after we left he passed away. I am just glad that he got to see me accomplish some things in my life. I always said that I wanted him to see me get married and have kids before he died and he did. So I couldn't ask for more. I honored him by giving Delores his name as her middle name and I am honored to be named after him also. He lived a good 90 years and I am glad that I inherited so much from him. I will miss him, but he is in a better place, watching over us and taking care of us in a way he never could if he were still here on this earth.
So that's what has been going on with us for the last 2 weeks I guess. Hope all is well with everyone else! Back to motherhood I go.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Saturday, March 12, 2011
25 and all grown up
Yesterday was my 25th birthday and I am excited to be 25. I have felt for a while that I am much older than my actual age. Married, two kids, a mortgage, and a dog just makes you feel like a grown up whether your age tells it or not. Although Josh has been teasing both of us (his birthday is the 27th) that we are going to be half way to 50, I prefer to take the glass-half-full approach.
I'll go ahead and warn you now this post is going to be very long because for once Delores is asleep, Lydia has been fed and is asleep in her swing and I have a little free time while the internet is actually working. We switched to AT&T and the internet has been on the fritz off and on for about a week.
This week went pretty well. I made it most all week by myself without help with the babies and I didn't freak out. My mom came yesterday for a few hours. There was one day that I shut down and by the time Josh got home I was ready to run out the door. He knows when I'm like this to take Delores off my hands and let me chill for a little while without talking to me. Otherwise he takes a chance of getting his head bitten off. After about 20 minutes I calm down and can be civil again. I am pretty proud of myself. While I was pregnant it was hard for me to be in mommy mode, but now that Lydia is here it has kicked in again and I actually wake up wanting to take care of my kids. It's been 10 months since I felt that way.
Delores has still been doing very well with sleeping through the night. Her days have kind of been thrown off for some reason. I don't know if it's because the time is about to change or what but she has been waking up later and later and going to bed later and later. Also she has been weaning out her second nap. When I can get her to take it sometimes it isn't until 4:00 or 4:30, which I don't like doing. I would just let it slide, but her first nap isn't changing. I figured when she would switch to one nap that she would be up longer in the morning and sleep longer during her nap, but she isn't. She is taking a nap 3 hours after she wakes up and only sleeping for an hour. We will see what happens after we switch our clocks but I'm thinking we will probably have to just cut out the second nap and move bedtime back up to compensate for the second nap.
Lydia is good I guess. She's a newborn and doesn't do much so I can't say much for her. The only thing consistent with her is that she eats every 3 hours during the day and fights sleep fiercely when she gets tired. That will change I hope. I don't need two bad sleepers on my hands. She is a good eater, which I am thankful for. Delores is a difficult eater and always has been. She spit up every time she ate until she was almost 9 months old and was underweight and behind by about 3 months on the growth chart. She still is. That is something that just doesn't change when you go that long with hardly keeping anything in your stomach. Lydia has spit up maybe once when my milk first came in because she just ate too much. Other than that she is terrific when it comes to eating. I think she may weigh about 10 pounds now. She is already in 0-3 month clothes which is a big difference from Delores who was in newborn clothes until she was 1 month old.
I am doing good. Beside actually wanting to be a mom again, I am just overall pleased with my life and myself. I have several things I am looking forward to and several things I am proud of. I'm excited about getting Lydia's nursery together. We have all the furniture, the room has been painted, the curtains are up, and it's coming together. I still have to go shopping for all the extra stuff and put the furniture together, but we are getting there. I also am going to start sewing diapers next week for Lydia and Delores. I am just waiting for the rest of my supplies to arrive. I'm anxious to get Lydia in cloth. I'm hoping that by the time she is one month old she will be wearing only cloth diapers and I can forget about sposies. I am also stoked that freezer stash of breast milk is growing quickly. Josh and I figured out last night that right now I have over a gallon of breast milk frozen and she's only 3 weeks old. By tomorrow morning I should have 300 oz stashed in the freezer. My baby will be on breast milk as long as I can possibly keep it going. The other thing i'm proud about is that I am about 9 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight. I'm not doing anything special. I'm just breastfeeding and the pounds are coming right off. Just like it did last time, only this time it is happening a whole lot faster. Mainly because I didn't gain that much in the first place.
So today I am going to try to work on my projects. Go shopping and clean a little. Josh's mom is coming to get Delores today so it will be just me and Lydia for a while. If she takes good naps and doesn't fight for an hour and a half like she has been then maybe I'll be able to get a good bit of stuff done.
So have a good Saturday everyone!
Oh and I would like to say congratulations to my friends Leigh and Ben on their engagement and to Katy on the birth of her daughter, Charlea.
I'll go ahead and warn you now this post is going to be very long because for once Delores is asleep, Lydia has been fed and is asleep in her swing and I have a little free time while the internet is actually working. We switched to AT&T and the internet has been on the fritz off and on for about a week.
This week went pretty well. I made it most all week by myself without help with the babies and I didn't freak out. My mom came yesterday for a few hours. There was one day that I shut down and by the time Josh got home I was ready to run out the door. He knows when I'm like this to take Delores off my hands and let me chill for a little while without talking to me. Otherwise he takes a chance of getting his head bitten off. After about 20 minutes I calm down and can be civil again. I am pretty proud of myself. While I was pregnant it was hard for me to be in mommy mode, but now that Lydia is here it has kicked in again and I actually wake up wanting to take care of my kids. It's been 10 months since I felt that way.
Delores has still been doing very well with sleeping through the night. Her days have kind of been thrown off for some reason. I don't know if it's because the time is about to change or what but she has been waking up later and later and going to bed later and later. Also she has been weaning out her second nap. When I can get her to take it sometimes it isn't until 4:00 or 4:30, which I don't like doing. I would just let it slide, but her first nap isn't changing. I figured when she would switch to one nap that she would be up longer in the morning and sleep longer during her nap, but she isn't. She is taking a nap 3 hours after she wakes up and only sleeping for an hour. We will see what happens after we switch our clocks but I'm thinking we will probably have to just cut out the second nap and move bedtime back up to compensate for the second nap.
Lydia is good I guess. She's a newborn and doesn't do much so I can't say much for her. The only thing consistent with her is that she eats every 3 hours during the day and fights sleep fiercely when she gets tired. That will change I hope. I don't need two bad sleepers on my hands. She is a good eater, which I am thankful for. Delores is a difficult eater and always has been. She spit up every time she ate until she was almost 9 months old and was underweight and behind by about 3 months on the growth chart. She still is. That is something that just doesn't change when you go that long with hardly keeping anything in your stomach. Lydia has spit up maybe once when my milk first came in because she just ate too much. Other than that she is terrific when it comes to eating. I think she may weigh about 10 pounds now. She is already in 0-3 month clothes which is a big difference from Delores who was in newborn clothes until she was 1 month old.
I am doing good. Beside actually wanting to be a mom again, I am just overall pleased with my life and myself. I have several things I am looking forward to and several things I am proud of. I'm excited about getting Lydia's nursery together. We have all the furniture, the room has been painted, the curtains are up, and it's coming together. I still have to go shopping for all the extra stuff and put the furniture together, but we are getting there. I also am going to start sewing diapers next week for Lydia and Delores. I am just waiting for the rest of my supplies to arrive. I'm anxious to get Lydia in cloth. I'm hoping that by the time she is one month old she will be wearing only cloth diapers and I can forget about sposies. I am also stoked that freezer stash of breast milk is growing quickly. Josh and I figured out last night that right now I have over a gallon of breast milk frozen and she's only 3 weeks old. By tomorrow morning I should have 300 oz stashed in the freezer. My baby will be on breast milk as long as I can possibly keep it going. The other thing i'm proud about is that I am about 9 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight. I'm not doing anything special. I'm just breastfeeding and the pounds are coming right off. Just like it did last time, only this time it is happening a whole lot faster. Mainly because I didn't gain that much in the first place.
So today I am going to try to work on my projects. Go shopping and clean a little. Josh's mom is coming to get Delores today so it will be just me and Lydia for a while. If she takes good naps and doesn't fight for an hour and a half like she has been then maybe I'll be able to get a good bit of stuff done.
So have a good Saturday everyone!
Oh and I would like to say congratulations to my friends Leigh and Ben on their engagement and to Katy on the birth of her daughter, Charlea.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
3 weeks old
wow time flies when you have two kids and no sleep. Lydia is three weeks old today. It seems like an eternity ago that I gave birth but it really wasn't that long ago.
Lydia is doing well. She still has a little mucus but it is finally clearing up. The antibiotics I'm taking for my bout with mastitis are making her really fussy and having tummy pains towards the end of the day and night. Her last two feedings before bed are really difficult. She just keeps crying and acting like she's hungry and then cries when I try to feed her. She is burping good so the only thing I can figure is that the meds just aren't agreeing with her. Only 7 more days left of the antibiotic. Woo! yeah right. So Josh and I haven't been getting to bed until 11 or 12 at night, which may not be late for some people, but when I have to get up with her in the middle of the night and feed her and Josh has to get up at 4:30 for work it is late. She is also going through that phase where she doesn't want to be put down. I get her to sleep finally and try to lay her down and she throws a fit. This is the hardest part of being a mother of two. Because I NEED to lay her down so I can take care of Delores and give her some attention too.
Delores, as you can expect, is getting really fed up with me and with the baby and not getting attention and the things she needs when she wants them. She has picked up her annoying whining again, which I cannot stand, but I get why she is doing it. She has also started biting me and her temper tantrums have reached an all time high. It is a very stressful time and to be honest I wish I had something else for her to do besides hang around me all day, but she is too young for most programs and everyone is too busy with their own lives to help during the week. On a positive note she is doing great during the night. She is officially sleeping through the night at 14 months old. Wow. Finally!
I would tell you all about how I'm doing but I'm sure you can probably tell. Sleep deprived, irritable, have a pounding headache from lack of sleep, ready to pull my hair out, and searching for the little pleasures in life like doing my blog (which I'm not even enjoying bc Lydia wont let me lay her down), expecting new packages in the mail, decorating Lydia's room, adult interaction, nap time, watching "sex in the city," and sleep.
I would write a whole lot more, but Delores is crying in her room, and the pull between this, Lydia, and her is getting to be too much for me.
Lydia is doing well. She still has a little mucus but it is finally clearing up. The antibiotics I'm taking for my bout with mastitis are making her really fussy and having tummy pains towards the end of the day and night. Her last two feedings before bed are really difficult. She just keeps crying and acting like she's hungry and then cries when I try to feed her. She is burping good so the only thing I can figure is that the meds just aren't agreeing with her. Only 7 more days left of the antibiotic. Woo! yeah right. So Josh and I haven't been getting to bed until 11 or 12 at night, which may not be late for some people, but when I have to get up with her in the middle of the night and feed her and Josh has to get up at 4:30 for work it is late. She is also going through that phase where she doesn't want to be put down. I get her to sleep finally and try to lay her down and she throws a fit. This is the hardest part of being a mother of two. Because I NEED to lay her down so I can take care of Delores and give her some attention too.
Delores, as you can expect, is getting really fed up with me and with the baby and not getting attention and the things she needs when she wants them. She has picked up her annoying whining again, which I cannot stand, but I get why she is doing it. She has also started biting me and her temper tantrums have reached an all time high. It is a very stressful time and to be honest I wish I had something else for her to do besides hang around me all day, but she is too young for most programs and everyone is too busy with their own lives to help during the week. On a positive note she is doing great during the night. She is officially sleeping through the night at 14 months old. Wow. Finally!
I would tell you all about how I'm doing but I'm sure you can probably tell. Sleep deprived, irritable, have a pounding headache from lack of sleep, ready to pull my hair out, and searching for the little pleasures in life like doing my blog (which I'm not even enjoying bc Lydia wont let me lay her down), expecting new packages in the mail, decorating Lydia's room, adult interaction, nap time, watching "sex in the city," and sleep.
I would write a whole lot more, but Delores is crying in her room, and the pull between this, Lydia, and her is getting to be too much for me.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Finally!
It feels like it's been forever since I was able to post. I'm so glad I can get some "me," time without the kiddies. Although I would have chosen to get a little more sleep, but after feeding Lydia our insane neighbor let out his annoyingly loud dog at 6:30 and ruined my changes to get anymore sleep. I'll write about our issues with he and his wife a little later.
Where do I begin? Delores and Lydia and both still sick. Delores hasn't finished her antibiotic yet though and the new doctor opted not to do anything for Lydia. The new pediatrician was interesting. I don't know what I was expecting, but I was really not impressed. I met with a nurse practitioner which was my first problem. Not that there is anything wrong with NP's, but I really would like to meet with a Doctor for a change. The NP was kind of a bitch (for lack of a better word). She practically put me down for not wanting to vaccinate my children and we almost got into with each other in the office. Whatever. I wasn't even gonna bother with them if they made a big deal over vaccines but the receptionist promised me over the phone that it would be my choice and they wouldn't force me to do it. Looks like she was mistaken. The only thing I liked was that they have a lactation consultant on site available for free and medela breast pump items for sale for cheaper than babies r us. Lydia has her one month check up in two weeks and if I'm still not comfortable I guess I'll just have to find someone else.
Sleep has been going great for Delores. Oh my goodness, it is like a dream. For four nights in a row we didn't hear one peep out of her. Last night she got up one time, but I don't blame her for that because when Josh went in to rescue her he couldn't even find her paci. I had to hand him one out of the emergency stash. Yes, I stash pacis just for situations such as those. Lydia has gone to waking up every 4 hours instead of every 5 hours to eat. It wouldn't be so bad if she wasn't so hard to get back to sleep. Then after she goes to sleep I have to pump or by the next time she gets up I'd be in pain.
Speaking of pumping. I am proud to say as of right now I have 163 ounces of pumped breast milk in my freezer. Woo hoo! She is only 2 weeks old. I don't know how long I'm gonna keep it going but I have a feeling our freezer is gonna run out of room very quickly. Josh jokes we will have to buy another freezer for all the breast milk, but honestly if I keep going like I have been (three 6 ounce bottles a day) we will have to do something. I had such a hard time with low milk supply and pumping for Delores so she could eat while I was at school and then feeling guilty when I had to stop when I got pregnant that I have no intention of stopping anytime soon.
Yesterday was the first day I was alone with the girls all day long and it went pretty good. Delores got a little jealous for attention and wanted to be held more than usual. Lydia wanted to eat and fuss at inconvenient times, but that's what you got to do. I was able to do a little housework, the dishes and one load of laundry. The girls got fed and didn't go hungry. Delores had a nap. Lydia survived her sister's attempt to "play," with her. I didn't have a meltdown or scream at the kids, so overall I think it was a pretty good day.
Home life is going pretty good. Last week before Josh went back to work he insisted we stop and get my birthday present early, but they were out of stock so Monday I got my new iPhone via fed ex. I was excited about that. Yesterday the Ups man brought Lydia's bedding so I am super excited about that. I can't wait to get started on her nursery. We took the guest bed down last week, so it is primed for my creativity. Decorating is my joy. If I could be am interior decorator I would, but there is no school for it around here. So right now I get my jollies from decorating and renovating my house during the warm months and planning the decorations and renovations during the cold months. I love that my house is always a work in progress. I wouldn't have it any other way. When I can say "okay I'm done," then it will be time to move. Lol. So anyway, since we got her bedding, we will be painting her room this weekend. Also her dresser, crib, and curtains have all been shipped so we might be putting together furniture too if it arrives today or tomorrow. We still need to go shopping for all the extras like a mattress and changing table pad and things like that, but I don't see how we can fit it it unless Josh stays here and I go shopping. He probably will want to go with me though so we might be making a late trip to babies r us. Which will be fine with me, so I have something to look forward to all week.
Josh is doing good. He is missing the girls a lot. He went through this with Delores though when she was first born. He realizes how important family is and how much he doesn't get to see us now that we have a new baby in the house and he kind of gets a little defiant towards his job. He took the job because he wanted to be happy with what he was doing, and he does love driving a tow truck, but now his priorities have changed. It is a phase, because once Lydia gets a little older he'll want to go back to doing what he loves to be happy. It's a man thing I think. They get satisfaction out of their jobs because they are ingrained to be providers.
Josh and I are doing good. We are offically sharing a bed again and it is great. Just like I had hoped, I can sleep straight through the snoring now that I'm not pregnant. I feel closer to him just being back in the same room. We are still adjusting to the lack of sleep and normally we pass out as soon as Lydia goes to sleep at night and don't do a lot of talking, but that will change the older she gets. Before long she will be on a schedule too and in bed by 7 so Josh and I can have our couple time. Till then we will just make do with grunts and one-word answers. Lol
I know I have probably forgotten some things that went on this week. I will really try to post more frequently if I have time. Right now Lydia's schedule is still all over the place and I am too sleep deprived to just get up on my own early and miss out on some extra sleep where I can.
Where do I begin? Delores and Lydia and both still sick. Delores hasn't finished her antibiotic yet though and the new doctor opted not to do anything for Lydia. The new pediatrician was interesting. I don't know what I was expecting, but I was really not impressed. I met with a nurse practitioner which was my first problem. Not that there is anything wrong with NP's, but I really would like to meet with a Doctor for a change. The NP was kind of a bitch (for lack of a better word). She practically put me down for not wanting to vaccinate my children and we almost got into with each other in the office. Whatever. I wasn't even gonna bother with them if they made a big deal over vaccines but the receptionist promised me over the phone that it would be my choice and they wouldn't force me to do it. Looks like she was mistaken. The only thing I liked was that they have a lactation consultant on site available for free and medela breast pump items for sale for cheaper than babies r us. Lydia has her one month check up in two weeks and if I'm still not comfortable I guess I'll just have to find someone else.
Sleep has been going great for Delores. Oh my goodness, it is like a dream. For four nights in a row we didn't hear one peep out of her. Last night she got up one time, but I don't blame her for that because when Josh went in to rescue her he couldn't even find her paci. I had to hand him one out of the emergency stash. Yes, I stash pacis just for situations such as those. Lydia has gone to waking up every 4 hours instead of every 5 hours to eat. It wouldn't be so bad if she wasn't so hard to get back to sleep. Then after she goes to sleep I have to pump or by the next time she gets up I'd be in pain.
Speaking of pumping. I am proud to say as of right now I have 163 ounces of pumped breast milk in my freezer. Woo hoo! She is only 2 weeks old. I don't know how long I'm gonna keep it going but I have a feeling our freezer is gonna run out of room very quickly. Josh jokes we will have to buy another freezer for all the breast milk, but honestly if I keep going like I have been (three 6 ounce bottles a day) we will have to do something. I had such a hard time with low milk supply and pumping for Delores so she could eat while I was at school and then feeling guilty when I had to stop when I got pregnant that I have no intention of stopping anytime soon.
Yesterday was the first day I was alone with the girls all day long and it went pretty good. Delores got a little jealous for attention and wanted to be held more than usual. Lydia wanted to eat and fuss at inconvenient times, but that's what you got to do. I was able to do a little housework, the dishes and one load of laundry. The girls got fed and didn't go hungry. Delores had a nap. Lydia survived her sister's attempt to "play," with her. I didn't have a meltdown or scream at the kids, so overall I think it was a pretty good day.
Home life is going pretty good. Last week before Josh went back to work he insisted we stop and get my birthday present early, but they were out of stock so Monday I got my new iPhone via fed ex. I was excited about that. Yesterday the Ups man brought Lydia's bedding so I am super excited about that. I can't wait to get started on her nursery. We took the guest bed down last week, so it is primed for my creativity. Decorating is my joy. If I could be am interior decorator I would, but there is no school for it around here. So right now I get my jollies from decorating and renovating my house during the warm months and planning the decorations and renovations during the cold months. I love that my house is always a work in progress. I wouldn't have it any other way. When I can say "okay I'm done," then it will be time to move. Lol. So anyway, since we got her bedding, we will be painting her room this weekend. Also her dresser, crib, and curtains have all been shipped so we might be putting together furniture too if it arrives today or tomorrow. We still need to go shopping for all the extras like a mattress and changing table pad and things like that, but I don't see how we can fit it it unless Josh stays here and I go shopping. He probably will want to go with me though so we might be making a late trip to babies r us. Which will be fine with me, so I have something to look forward to all week.
Josh is doing good. He is missing the girls a lot. He went through this with Delores though when she was first born. He realizes how important family is and how much he doesn't get to see us now that we have a new baby in the house and he kind of gets a little defiant towards his job. He took the job because he wanted to be happy with what he was doing, and he does love driving a tow truck, but now his priorities have changed. It is a phase, because once Lydia gets a little older he'll want to go back to doing what he loves to be happy. It's a man thing I think. They get satisfaction out of their jobs because they are ingrained to be providers.
Josh and I are doing good. We are offically sharing a bed again and it is great. Just like I had hoped, I can sleep straight through the snoring now that I'm not pregnant. I feel closer to him just being back in the same room. We are still adjusting to the lack of sleep and normally we pass out as soon as Lydia goes to sleep at night and don't do a lot of talking, but that will change the older she gets. Before long she will be on a schedule too and in bed by 7 so Josh and I can have our couple time. Till then we will just make do with grunts and one-word answers. Lol
I know I have probably forgotten some things that went on this week. I will really try to post more frequently if I have time. Right now Lydia's schedule is still all over the place and I am too sleep deprived to just get up on my own early and miss out on some extra sleep where I can.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Sickly Sunday
Today is Sunday and I wish I were going to church, but with a sickly Delores and a borderline sickly Lydia, it just wouldn't be a good idea.
So yesterday went pretty well. Lydia didn't seem too sick. She never ran a fever, she coughed a little, and I heard a little mucus, but I never got any out and she didn't seem like she was uncomfortable, so I didn't bother calling our quack of a doctor. Delores seemed like she was doing better too. She took a good nap, she didn't seem as congested, and she ate pretty good.
After Josh's mom and sister picked up Delores I got to work on my shopping. It was a little frustrating because the crib I was going to get was out of stock and the bedding, hamper, and mobile were out of stock. So I had to track down all the stuff from another website and pick out a different crib. After about an hour of looking I finally got everything ordered except for the mobile and the hamper. No one had it in stock. So the next two weeks should be pretty crazy with all the boxes on my front stoop. Josh got home right about then and he was able to hang out all day. It was very nice. After I motivated us to get up and stop being lazy we organized the house a little, and then it was time for Delores to come home. When Delores got home we put her to bed, ate dinner and then Josh got called out. He didn't have to be gone long so we were back in cuddle town in no time.
I never got the breast pumping down. =( I tried single pumping with a soft shield, that caused a loss in suction. I tried double with one soft shield (since I only have one) and that fixed the suction problem, but then I couldn't get hardly any milk. So I guess I'm going to have to buy another soft shield and try that. I went back to my single pump and surprisingly did not have the results like I was having. It kind of irritated me. I don't want to waste my time on one ounce of milk. Up until yesterday I was getting at least 3 ounces off one side at a time. So I was filling up a bottle in two feedings. Two bottles a day. Twelve ounces total a day. So I will try again today. That's the thing about breastfeeding. You have to be very dedicated to it and it takes hard work, but it is very worth it. I hated that I had to stop breast feeding Delores, but when it's not there to give then what else can you do?
Today I have no plans except for trying to keep my sanity. I'm still watching Lydia closely and drinking Theraflu, but so far so good. I can't say the same about Josh. He snored loudly all night and sounded very congested so he may have caught what Delores had, but we will see when he gets up.
Have a great Sunday!
So yesterday went pretty well. Lydia didn't seem too sick. She never ran a fever, she coughed a little, and I heard a little mucus, but I never got any out and she didn't seem like she was uncomfortable, so I didn't bother calling our quack of a doctor. Delores seemed like she was doing better too. She took a good nap, she didn't seem as congested, and she ate pretty good.
After Josh's mom and sister picked up Delores I got to work on my shopping. It was a little frustrating because the crib I was going to get was out of stock and the bedding, hamper, and mobile were out of stock. So I had to track down all the stuff from another website and pick out a different crib. After about an hour of looking I finally got everything ordered except for the mobile and the hamper. No one had it in stock. So the next two weeks should be pretty crazy with all the boxes on my front stoop. Josh got home right about then and he was able to hang out all day. It was very nice. After I motivated us to get up and stop being lazy we organized the house a little, and then it was time for Delores to come home. When Delores got home we put her to bed, ate dinner and then Josh got called out. He didn't have to be gone long so we were back in cuddle town in no time.
I never got the breast pumping down. =( I tried single pumping with a soft shield, that caused a loss in suction. I tried double with one soft shield (since I only have one) and that fixed the suction problem, but then I couldn't get hardly any milk. So I guess I'm going to have to buy another soft shield and try that. I went back to my single pump and surprisingly did not have the results like I was having. It kind of irritated me. I don't want to waste my time on one ounce of milk. Up until yesterday I was getting at least 3 ounces off one side at a time. So I was filling up a bottle in two feedings. Two bottles a day. Twelve ounces total a day. So I will try again today. That's the thing about breastfeeding. You have to be very dedicated to it and it takes hard work, but it is very worth it. I hated that I had to stop breast feeding Delores, but when it's not there to give then what else can you do?
Today I have no plans except for trying to keep my sanity. I'm still watching Lydia closely and drinking Theraflu, but so far so good. I can't say the same about Josh. He snored loudly all night and sounded very congested so he may have caught what Delores had, but we will see when he gets up.
Have a great Sunday!
lazy Saturday
Good morning! Today is Saturday and I am ready to get this day started. I think. Lol.
Yesterday was pretty wild. Delores is still sick and she wore me out. Even though my mom was there I still over did it. Delores wanted to be picked up a lot and I couldn't turn her down because she was sick and I didn't want to upset her anymore than she already was. She wouldn't take good naps either so I didn't really get a break from taking care of her. Lydia had a rough day too. She had a hard time falling asleep for naps. Probably because I couldn't rock her and relax with her like I have been and she was snacking to fall asleep, so it felt like I nursed her all day.
Delores did something very cute though. Lydia was crying and Delores was trying to peak in the swing to see her and when I picked her up she started to throw a fit. Mom suggested she take Lydia and I take Delores because she may have been getting jealous so I did and Delores threw another fit and pointed at Lydia. So mom handed Lydia to me and Delores reached her arms out like she was going to take Lydia. So I got real close to Delores and she just hugged her and laid her head on Lydia's back and patted her head and back. It was so cute. She just kept hugging her for about 5 minutes. It melted my heart.
After I put sickly Delores to bed Lydia got up to eat from a long nap and she started coughing and sounded congested in her nose. It freaked me out a little but I thought maybe she just sucked some dust in and she was just trying to get it out. Then when I went to feed and burp her she started gagging because of the mucus in the back of her throat. Well then I really started freaking out. I called Josh (who is on call this weekend) to tell him and ask what I should do. He told me to call Amy, so I did and she said just to watch her closely till tomorrow morning (this morning) and if it got worse to call our family doctor to come in and see her. She asked me if he had swab Delores for flu or rsv or anything and when I told her "no," she was pretty appauled. Especially because there was a newborn in the house. I hate our family doctor. I always have, but this just takes the cake. I have spent months trying to find a new pediatrition that would take our insurance and I have finally found one, but until I get Delores plans switched I am stuck with Dr. Stafford.
So today I just going to watch her closely and drink Theraflu so she will get a little in my breastmilk and just try to relax. Josh's parent are looking after Delores today so I wont be so stressed out with Josh being on call. I'm also going to try to buy some stuff for Lydia's nursery today. I'm just going to try to be as lazy as possible.
Yesterday was pretty wild. Delores is still sick and she wore me out. Even though my mom was there I still over did it. Delores wanted to be picked up a lot and I couldn't turn her down because she was sick and I didn't want to upset her anymore than she already was. She wouldn't take good naps either so I didn't really get a break from taking care of her. Lydia had a rough day too. She had a hard time falling asleep for naps. Probably because I couldn't rock her and relax with her like I have been and she was snacking to fall asleep, so it felt like I nursed her all day.
Delores did something very cute though. Lydia was crying and Delores was trying to peak in the swing to see her and when I picked her up she started to throw a fit. Mom suggested she take Lydia and I take Delores because she may have been getting jealous so I did and Delores threw another fit and pointed at Lydia. So mom handed Lydia to me and Delores reached her arms out like she was going to take Lydia. So I got real close to Delores and she just hugged her and laid her head on Lydia's back and patted her head and back. It was so cute. She just kept hugging her for about 5 minutes. It melted my heart.
After I put sickly Delores to bed Lydia got up to eat from a long nap and she started coughing and sounded congested in her nose. It freaked me out a little but I thought maybe she just sucked some dust in and she was just trying to get it out. Then when I went to feed and burp her she started gagging because of the mucus in the back of her throat. Well then I really started freaking out. I called Josh (who is on call this weekend) to tell him and ask what I should do. He told me to call Amy, so I did and she said just to watch her closely till tomorrow morning (this morning) and if it got worse to call our family doctor to come in and see her. She asked me if he had swab Delores for flu or rsv or anything and when I told her "no," she was pretty appauled. Especially because there was a newborn in the house. I hate our family doctor. I always have, but this just takes the cake. I have spent months trying to find a new pediatrition that would take our insurance and I have finally found one, but until I get Delores plans switched I am stuck with Dr. Stafford.
So today I just going to watch her closely and drink Theraflu so she will get a little in my breastmilk and just try to relax. Josh's parent are looking after Delores today so I wont be so stressed out with Josh being on call. I'm also going to try to buy some stuff for Lydia's nursery today. I'm just going to try to be as lazy as possible.
Friday, February 25, 2011
No Josh = scarey day
Today is the first day without Josh home. Eek! My mom is coming to help, but there is nothing like the other parent's help.
I loved having Josh here with me. I really forgot how much I loved just spending time with him. We hardly get to see each other and he works every other weekend, so when we are together we are usually running errands and getting things done around the house. Even when we have special dinner dates or something we still talk about things we have to do because we haven't had enough time to wind down from our lives to just enjoy each other. He is so great. He helped out around the house and with the babies and spoiled Delores (in a good way) and she is going to be so mad when she gets up and he is not here. Just everyday things he surprised me with. When he doesn't have to work he is like a different person. He tried new food (something I struggle to get him to do) on his own, he and Delores picked me flowers, he read almost every blog post, he was so attentive and comforting. It was awesome. Sigh.
Today is going to be good though. I woke up in a good mood ready to start my day with confidence that I can do this and not loose my mind. We had a good night last night. We didn't have to go in to get Delores one time. Lydia went about 5 hours in between feedings, so I got about 4 hours of sleep at a time. It was the best sleep I've gotten since Lydia has been home. Oh and she was one week old yesterday. But anyway, Delores is still sick, but she started her antibiotic yesterday so maybe she'll feel a little better and won't be so rough on me. I still technically not suppose to do any housework, but I probably will anyway if I have time. I feel like I can work the girls schedules out around each other and I won't be pulled in different directions too often. The only thing I'm concerned about is pumping breast milk. I just got a double pump and I haven't figure out how I'm going to be hands free to pump yet, but I'll get it down. Hopefully. Lol. If I don't I can go to using my single pump, but I really want to get it down for Josh's sake because he hates buying things that I end up not being able to use. It would bother me too, but as long as I get the breast milk out then I'm happy.
Well Delores is calling so off I go to start the day.
I loved having Josh here with me. I really forgot how much I loved just spending time with him. We hardly get to see each other and he works every other weekend, so when we are together we are usually running errands and getting things done around the house. Even when we have special dinner dates or something we still talk about things we have to do because we haven't had enough time to wind down from our lives to just enjoy each other. He is so great. He helped out around the house and with the babies and spoiled Delores (in a good way) and she is going to be so mad when she gets up and he is not here. Just everyday things he surprised me with. When he doesn't have to work he is like a different person. He tried new food (something I struggle to get him to do) on his own, he and Delores picked me flowers, he read almost every blog post, he was so attentive and comforting. It was awesome. Sigh.
Today is going to be good though. I woke up in a good mood ready to start my day with confidence that I can do this and not loose my mind. We had a good night last night. We didn't have to go in to get Delores one time. Lydia went about 5 hours in between feedings, so I got about 4 hours of sleep at a time. It was the best sleep I've gotten since Lydia has been home. Oh and she was one week old yesterday. But anyway, Delores is still sick, but she started her antibiotic yesterday so maybe she'll feel a little better and won't be so rough on me. I still technically not suppose to do any housework, but I probably will anyway if I have time. I feel like I can work the girls schedules out around each other and I won't be pulled in different directions too often. The only thing I'm concerned about is pumping breast milk. I just got a double pump and I haven't figure out how I'm going to be hands free to pump yet, but I'll get it down. Hopefully. Lol. If I don't I can go to using my single pump, but I really want to get it down for Josh's sake because he hates buying things that I end up not being able to use. It would bother me too, but as long as I get the breast milk out then I'm happy.
Well Delores is calling so off I go to start the day.
short and sweet
Well I haven't gotten a schedule down for myself or for the girls yet so I am writing this at night. The negative hour of the day. Dun, dun, dun. Lol.
Anyway, Lydia's check up went get. She only lost 2 ounces from her birth weight so she was 8 pounds, 2 ounces. Her color is good, she is eating good, and her heal stick only took about 5 minutes because she also bled good.
And this was a saved draft and I don't remember what else I wanted to say. Lol
Anyway, Lydia's check up went get. She only lost 2 ounces from her birth weight so she was 8 pounds, 2 ounces. Her color is good, she is eating good, and her heal stick only took about 5 minutes because she also bled good.
And this was a saved draft and I don't remember what else I wanted to say. Lol
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
A mother of two...what did I get myself into?
So it has been 5 whole nights and 4 whole days since we had Lydia and I have enjoyed very moment I've had with her. I love newborns. They are so sweet and peaceful and all they do is eat and sleep and poop. Lol. I understand now why I got pregnant so quickly after Delores was born. I look at Lydia and I never want her to grow out of this stage. You just want to sit and stare at her for hours and it kind of makes me sad to know this period of time is very short and it will be a while before I will get to experience this again. I have warned Josh though that no matter how sad I am that our baby is growing up, do not let me get pregnant again. Lol. At least for a few more years anyway.
Delores's introduction went pretty well. She was napping when we got home and we put Lydia in the bouncey seat in the pack n play while she was still napping. When she got up we spent some time with her and she was so happy to see us. She cuddled with us a good bit and then after almost an hour we thought it would be a good idea to make their introduction. Below is a video of the first time they met.
WARNING: this video is 9 mins long. It may become boring but it is a once in a lifetime event for us.
Lydia has been a pretty easy going baby so far. I wasn't expecting anything but to feed, feed, feed until my breastmilk came in. So she has been going about three hours or more in between feedings during the day and every two hours at night. You could say, so far, she kind of has her nights and days mixed up. My milk came in yesterday and it was a little rougher than I imagined it would be. She is kind of a lazy eater. I've been having to change her diaper in between breasts because she falls asleep and wakes about 20 mins later still hungry. Well yesterday she started wanting to be fed for hours at a time. She would fall asleep, I'd lay her down, 10 mins later she would cry to be fed again. I probably breastfed her from 1:30-2:30 and then I just made her stop so we could grab a bite to eat. She still cried in the backseat like she was hungry. Then she ate good around 4:00 and then she ate again at 7:00. When it was time for her to eat again at 10, she did not want to stop. I fed her off and on until 1:30 in the morning. I tried giving her a paci, holding her, rocking her, Josh tried holding her and putting her in the bouncey seat with the vibrating thing on, nothing was working. She would get quiet for a little while and then start crying again. That is the most frustrating thing about being a mother to a newborn. Sometimes they cry and you think "You been fed (plenty), you've been changed, you aren't hot or cold, you've been given gas drops, nothing is poking you anywhere. What else could possibly be wrong?," and they don't answer back. They just keep crying until you are crying yourself. We finally fell asleep around 2:00. Then she got up at 2:30 to eat. Again. This time she went back to sleep, but Delores got up at 5:00 wanting a bottle. So we were up again. Then we went back to sleep and Lydia went until 7:00 before she wanted to eat again. So I got up at 7:00 and am catching up on my blog, obviously.
Today, I hope will be better. We have Lydia's newborn screening with Amy today where she will weigh her and prick her heal and all that fun stuff. I am going to try to keep Lydia on a 3 hour feeding schedule also and see if that helps with her marathon feeding sessions. Also I am not going to pump today. Yesterday I tried to pump after feedings and I don't know if that had anything to do with her not eating well, but I am not going to take any chances. Even though my boobs feel like they are going to explode.
Mentally I am still nervous about the idea being left alone with two babies and I have had my "Ahhhh!!," moments, but Josh has been very helpful and I am just living in the moment until I have to be faced with the act of being a SAHM of two. Lydia is starting to be a little more predictable during the day also so maybe by the time Josh goes back to work on Friday I will have a little better idea of how to take care of them both. I may also start taking my antidepressant again before Josh goes back so I can get use to it and not be all spaced out. I don't really want to, but I don't want to freak out on the first day Josh is gone and just break down. I don't know. I still haven't decided. I may talk to Amy about it today. In the mean time, if any mommies with multiple children want to give me some sample schedules of their days it would be much appreciated.
Well Lydia is calling. Have a great Tuesday everyone!
Delores's introduction went pretty well. She was napping when we got home and we put Lydia in the bouncey seat in the pack n play while she was still napping. When she got up we spent some time with her and she was so happy to see us. She cuddled with us a good bit and then after almost an hour we thought it would be a good idea to make their introduction. Below is a video of the first time they met.
WARNING: this video is 9 mins long. It may become boring but it is a once in a lifetime event for us.
Lydia has been a pretty easy going baby so far. I wasn't expecting anything but to feed, feed, feed until my breastmilk came in. So she has been going about three hours or more in between feedings during the day and every two hours at night. You could say, so far, she kind of has her nights and days mixed up. My milk came in yesterday and it was a little rougher than I imagined it would be. She is kind of a lazy eater. I've been having to change her diaper in between breasts because she falls asleep and wakes about 20 mins later still hungry. Well yesterday she started wanting to be fed for hours at a time. She would fall asleep, I'd lay her down, 10 mins later she would cry to be fed again. I probably breastfed her from 1:30-2:30 and then I just made her stop so we could grab a bite to eat. She still cried in the backseat like she was hungry. Then she ate good around 4:00 and then she ate again at 7:00. When it was time for her to eat again at 10, she did not want to stop. I fed her off and on until 1:30 in the morning. I tried giving her a paci, holding her, rocking her, Josh tried holding her and putting her in the bouncey seat with the vibrating thing on, nothing was working. She would get quiet for a little while and then start crying again. That is the most frustrating thing about being a mother to a newborn. Sometimes they cry and you think "You been fed (plenty), you've been changed, you aren't hot or cold, you've been given gas drops, nothing is poking you anywhere. What else could possibly be wrong?," and they don't answer back. They just keep crying until you are crying yourself. We finally fell asleep around 2:00. Then she got up at 2:30 to eat. Again. This time she went back to sleep, but Delores got up at 5:00 wanting a bottle. So we were up again. Then we went back to sleep and Lydia went until 7:00 before she wanted to eat again. So I got up at 7:00 and am catching up on my blog, obviously.
Today, I hope will be better. We have Lydia's newborn screening with Amy today where she will weigh her and prick her heal and all that fun stuff. I am going to try to keep Lydia on a 3 hour feeding schedule also and see if that helps with her marathon feeding sessions. Also I am not going to pump today. Yesterday I tried to pump after feedings and I don't know if that had anything to do with her not eating well, but I am not going to take any chances. Even though my boobs feel like they are going to explode.
Mentally I am still nervous about the idea being left alone with two babies and I have had my "Ahhhh!!," moments, but Josh has been very helpful and I am just living in the moment until I have to be faced with the act of being a SAHM of two. Lydia is starting to be a little more predictable during the day also so maybe by the time Josh goes back to work on Friday I will have a little better idea of how to take care of them both. I may also start taking my antidepressant again before Josh goes back so I can get use to it and not be all spaced out. I don't really want to, but I don't want to freak out on the first day Josh is gone and just break down. I don't know. I still haven't decided. I may talk to Amy about it today. In the mean time, if any mommies with multiple children want to give me some sample schedules of their days it would be much appreciated.
Well Lydia is calling. Have a great Tuesday everyone!
She is here!...Birth story
Lydia Beatrice Lewis was born Thursday, February 17th, 2011 at 10:17 PM weighing in at 8 pounds 4 ounces and is 20 and quarter inches long.
Thursday last week everything started as normal. I got up, did my blog, my mom came over early, we played with Delores and I went off to my 40 week 4 day appointment with my midwife. I got there and had to wait a little while, but when she took me back she asked me almost immediately if I wanted to be check and have my membranes stripped. It kind of took me by surprise because having my membranes stripped was not something that I had even considered or even knew that she did. I hadn't done research on it. I didn't know what it entailed and frankly it kind of scared me. I believe birth should be a completely natural process based on the fact that God equipped women to bear children and anything that comes between that is just not natural to me. I couldn't decide if having my membranes stripped was coming in between natural birth. After talking to Josh we decided to go ahead and do it. That was around 4:00. I drove home and started noticing some cramping. I got home around 4:45 and started making Delores's dinner. By 5:00 I was having contractions. I timed them for about 30 mins and they were 2 mins about about 30 seconds long a piece. I texted Josh to come home ASAP and he call his parents to come sit with Delores. My mom was still there so she helped me with Delores because my contractions were getting intense fast. Josh got home and we finished packing our bag. We put Delores to bed and then we were gone. We were going to stop and grab a bite to eat before we got there because I hadn't eaten anything since lunch and I knew I was going to need it for energy, but I was so uncomfortable I just wanted to get there. I had my mom pick us up something on the way there.
When I got there around 7:00 she checked me and I was 6 cm. This did not make me happy. I made it to 8 at home with Delores and this time I felt like I was further along. So she sat me on the birthing ball for about an hour and checked me again. I think I was around 8, although she never really said. I was so tired so I tried to get in bed but that didn't work. It made the contractions so intense that I felt like I was going to throw up. I went back and forth from the edge of the bed, to the ball, to the bathroom until I started moaning to get through the contractions and then she got me in the tub. At this point I had no idea how much time had passed or what time it was. The tub made me a little more comfortable till I started getting the shakes and it was time to push. Nothing can make you comfortable at 10 cm. So at 10:00 I started to push. I was making good progress but it hurt so much worse than Delores did. This time I actually had to scream. Last time I was just able to hold my breath and push through it, but it hurt so bad I wanted to cry this time. Josh's poor mom had to go outside to pray because she just couldn't listen to me go through it. When she started to crown I started feeling nauseous during each push. When the head came through I said I was going to throw up and had to dry heave through getting her head the rest of the way out. When it was all the way out I had no feeling of relief because I still felt like dry heaving so I just took a deep breath and pushed her on out. She was born at 10:17 PM.
I felt ten times better obviously after she was out and laying on my chest. She didn't really want to cry good, but she kept going. Her head was covered in dark thick hair and thick vermix and I just kept looking at her waiting for some emotion to hit. But nothing really did. I just smiled and talked to her and then Amy cut the cord and handed her to Josh armed with a warm towel from the dryer. Then Amy cleaned me up, delivered the placenta, and got me to the bed. I was still shivering so I stayed under the covers while she checked her heart and breathing and took her footprints and all that. Then it was time to breastfeed. I breastfeed her for about an hour and then Amy dressed her and handed her off to Josh to show her to the family while I relaxed. He announced her name, Lydia Beatrice, and everyone liked it (or at least they pretended too, lol). Then I was ready for bed. My brother and dad made a late visit at 12:30 for a split second and then we all went to bed around 1:00.
Beginning to end, labor took 5 hours 17 mins. It was so much more intense this time around and if I had to do it all over again I would not have my membranes stripped. To me the labor was too fast. I need a little time to adjust to each pain and work through it. I think this just kick started it too quickly and I couldn't mentally work through the pain. There were actually times this time when I said "I don't know if I can do this," but of course they reassured me I could, and that I was, and that in a little while I would be holding my new baby and it would all be worth it. It wasn't going to last forever and before I knew it she was there. I will say one thing, I am not having another baby for a while. Lol.
Thursday last week everything started as normal. I got up, did my blog, my mom came over early, we played with Delores and I went off to my 40 week 4 day appointment with my midwife. I got there and had to wait a little while, but when she took me back she asked me almost immediately if I wanted to be check and have my membranes stripped. It kind of took me by surprise because having my membranes stripped was not something that I had even considered or even knew that she did. I hadn't done research on it. I didn't know what it entailed and frankly it kind of scared me. I believe birth should be a completely natural process based on the fact that God equipped women to bear children and anything that comes between that is just not natural to me. I couldn't decide if having my membranes stripped was coming in between natural birth. After talking to Josh we decided to go ahead and do it. That was around 4:00. I drove home and started noticing some cramping. I got home around 4:45 and started making Delores's dinner. By 5:00 I was having contractions. I timed them for about 30 mins and they were 2 mins about about 30 seconds long a piece. I texted Josh to come home ASAP and he call his parents to come sit with Delores. My mom was still there so she helped me with Delores because my contractions were getting intense fast. Josh got home and we finished packing our bag. We put Delores to bed and then we were gone. We were going to stop and grab a bite to eat before we got there because I hadn't eaten anything since lunch and I knew I was going to need it for energy, but I was so uncomfortable I just wanted to get there. I had my mom pick us up something on the way there.
When I got there around 7:00 she checked me and I was 6 cm. This did not make me happy. I made it to 8 at home with Delores and this time I felt like I was further along. So she sat me on the birthing ball for about an hour and checked me again. I think I was around 8, although she never really said. I was so tired so I tried to get in bed but that didn't work. It made the contractions so intense that I felt like I was going to throw up. I went back and forth from the edge of the bed, to the ball, to the bathroom until I started moaning to get through the contractions and then she got me in the tub. At this point I had no idea how much time had passed or what time it was. The tub made me a little more comfortable till I started getting the shakes and it was time to push. Nothing can make you comfortable at 10 cm. So at 10:00 I started to push. I was making good progress but it hurt so much worse than Delores did. This time I actually had to scream. Last time I was just able to hold my breath and push through it, but it hurt so bad I wanted to cry this time. Josh's poor mom had to go outside to pray because she just couldn't listen to me go through it. When she started to crown I started feeling nauseous during each push. When the head came through I said I was going to throw up and had to dry heave through getting her head the rest of the way out. When it was all the way out I had no feeling of relief because I still felt like dry heaving so I just took a deep breath and pushed her on out. She was born at 10:17 PM.
I felt ten times better obviously after she was out and laying on my chest. She didn't really want to cry good, but she kept going. Her head was covered in dark thick hair and thick vermix and I just kept looking at her waiting for some emotion to hit. But nothing really did. I just smiled and talked to her and then Amy cut the cord and handed her to Josh armed with a warm towel from the dryer. Then Amy cleaned me up, delivered the placenta, and got me to the bed. I was still shivering so I stayed under the covers while she checked her heart and breathing and took her footprints and all that. Then it was time to breastfeed. I breastfeed her for about an hour and then Amy dressed her and handed her off to Josh to show her to the family while I relaxed. He announced her name, Lydia Beatrice, and everyone liked it (or at least they pretended too, lol). Then I was ready for bed. My brother and dad made a late visit at 12:30 for a split second and then we all went to bed around 1:00.
Beginning to end, labor took 5 hours 17 mins. It was so much more intense this time around and if I had to do it all over again I would not have my membranes stripped. To me the labor was too fast. I need a little time to adjust to each pain and work through it. I think this just kick started it too quickly and I couldn't mentally work through the pain. There were actually times this time when I said "I don't know if I can do this," but of course they reassured me I could, and that I was, and that in a little while I would be holding my new baby and it would all be worth it. It wasn't going to last forever and before I knew it she was there. I will say one thing, I am not having another baby for a while. Lol.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
4 days overdue
Okay, so I'm 4 days overdue. I can live with that. Lol. Anyone know what the stages of grief are? Have I hit them all yet? Lol.
Yesterday I started off pretty depressed even though I tried to be upbeat. My insensitive father sent me a text message yesterday morning (like he does almost everyday) with just one word "Today?" Well if I knew when I was going pop this baby out I'd probably be a millionaire because I would've figured out how to predict one of the great mysteries of life. I sent him one back saying "I don't know I don't have a timer." I just started crying. There is all this pressure on me to have this baby and I have no control over it, but people act like I do. Anyway, after I balled like a baby to Josh over the phone and expressed how it just wasn't funny, I got up and got over it. I went in to get Delores up and she made me smile. I realized that soon she was not going to be my only child and I needed to take this time not as a disappointment that I don't have two children yet, but as a privilege that I get these few extra days to enjoy my daughter as an only child. So that really changed my day.
Everything else was pretty normal. Delores spend some time outside because the weather has been so nice lately and she enjoyed that. I actually did some housework to make the day go a little quicker. I put up some laundry that had piled up on top of the dryer and did some diaper laundry. I tried to do some dishes but I just couldn't bend down that much or even really reach the sink that well. I also made dinner. Josh got home about 30 minutes early last night which we all enjoyed because he got to see a messy Delores finish her dinner and then he got to play with her for a while. We went outside and they "chased," each other around the yard (as well as a toddler can chase on uneven ground). Then we did bath and bed and Josh had to make a run to the grocery store. I just went last week, but I bought things in anticipation that we would have the baby already and Josh would be here and we would cook and freeze meals together. Well she is not here and Josh is still taking his lunch instead of eating at home so we ran out the things I didn't bother to get. After he got back we sat and ate ice cream out of the carton together and talked and then we went to bed.
Josh had baby monitor duty last night and I only had to tell him to get up once, but he told me this morning he did only get up that one time. Lol. He's so funny.
Today I have my 40 week 4 day appointment with my midwife and I'm not sure what to expect because I didn't go over last time so I don't know if we'll talk about induction or do a cervical exam or what. My mom is coming to watch Delores and she mentioned something about taking her to the park. That should be fun. I don't really care as long as I get out of the house. I hate being cooped up in the house. I've mentioned also that I'm not really made to be a SAHM either so the combination of the two usually sends me nuts by this time of the week, but I think I've talked about that before.
Two more days until the weekend and I get to spend some time with Josh! Have a great Thursday! Oh and Happy Birthday to my wonderful father-in-law!
Yesterday I started off pretty depressed even though I tried to be upbeat. My insensitive father sent me a text message yesterday morning (like he does almost everyday) with just one word "Today?" Well if I knew when I was going pop this baby out I'd probably be a millionaire because I would've figured out how to predict one of the great mysteries of life. I sent him one back saying "I don't know I don't have a timer." I just started crying. There is all this pressure on me to have this baby and I have no control over it, but people act like I do. Anyway, after I balled like a baby to Josh over the phone and expressed how it just wasn't funny, I got up and got over it. I went in to get Delores up and she made me smile. I realized that soon she was not going to be my only child and I needed to take this time not as a disappointment that I don't have two children yet, but as a privilege that I get these few extra days to enjoy my daughter as an only child. So that really changed my day.
Everything else was pretty normal. Delores spend some time outside because the weather has been so nice lately and she enjoyed that. I actually did some housework to make the day go a little quicker. I put up some laundry that had piled up on top of the dryer and did some diaper laundry. I tried to do some dishes but I just couldn't bend down that much or even really reach the sink that well. I also made dinner. Josh got home about 30 minutes early last night which we all enjoyed because he got to see a messy Delores finish her dinner and then he got to play with her for a while. We went outside and they "chased," each other around the yard (as well as a toddler can chase on uneven ground). Then we did bath and bed and Josh had to make a run to the grocery store. I just went last week, but I bought things in anticipation that we would have the baby already and Josh would be here and we would cook and freeze meals together. Well she is not here and Josh is still taking his lunch instead of eating at home so we ran out the things I didn't bother to get. After he got back we sat and ate ice cream out of the carton together and talked and then we went to bed.
Josh had baby monitor duty last night and I only had to tell him to get up once, but he told me this morning he did only get up that one time. Lol. He's so funny.
Today I have my 40 week 4 day appointment with my midwife and I'm not sure what to expect because I didn't go over last time so I don't know if we'll talk about induction or do a cervical exam or what. My mom is coming to watch Delores and she mentioned something about taking her to the park. That should be fun. I don't really care as long as I get out of the house. I hate being cooped up in the house. I've mentioned also that I'm not really made to be a SAHM either so the combination of the two usually sends me nuts by this time of the week, but I think I've talked about that before.
Two more days until the weekend and I get to spend some time with Josh! Have a great Thursday! Oh and Happy Birthday to my wonderful father-in-law!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
3 days overdue.
Ugh! Lol. I am trying to not think about the fact that she is still in there, but of course that is all I can think about. I know I posted that I kind of like being overdue but I change my mind. I must have just been having a good Monday or something cause yesterday was the complete opposite.
Starting with Delores's nap and my shower I started feeling very nauseous and hot and I had to go lay down for a little while. I had to force myself to get up and I opened the front door to let some cold air in until the heat kicked on cause I didn't want to freeze or burn up Delores. I text ed Andrea, Josh's sister, to come and help me cause obviously I was not going to be able to go full force with Delores if I felt like I was going to throw up or pass out. I also was still having weird pains, so I just felt like I couldn't do it. I made Delores's lunch and got that all ready so she didn't have to worry about that and then when she got there I went and laid down. I tried timing my pains, but they were all over the place, and somewhere after 1:30 I dozed off. I only slept for about 30 minutes and then I got up because I was stiff from laying in the bed. I wasn't very nauseous anymore so I got up to play with Delores and get her dinner made. I was still having pains but I got through it. Andrea stayed until Josh got home from work and then we did bed time and I went and laid back down in the bed. We had dinner in bed and Josh decided we needed to make some type of pregnancy dinner tray that would allow pregnant women to lay down on their side and eat with some type of Velcro attachment for bowls. I don't know, he is always thinking, but he was really just trying to make me smile. I went to bed after "Sex and the City," went off and that was the gist of my day.
Last night Delores got up and wanted a bottle around 11:00. It's odd that she would want one the early in the night, but she did. I think she is programed to get 3 bottles a day and yesterday, because she had lunch late, she only got 2 so she wanted that one in the middle of the night instead of early in the morning.
Today I have no idea what is going to happen. I assume we will just go on with our normal day and I will try not to think about this pregnancy because it is starting to make me depressed.
Sorry these posts lately haven't been very interesting, but I just have no inspiration right now. All I can think about obviously is being in labor. I know my creativity will spark back up after the baby is born, although it might take me a while to get on a schedule so I can blog.
Well, have a good Wednesday everyone!
Starting with Delores's nap and my shower I started feeling very nauseous and hot and I had to go lay down for a little while. I had to force myself to get up and I opened the front door to let some cold air in until the heat kicked on cause I didn't want to freeze or burn up Delores. I text ed Andrea, Josh's sister, to come and help me cause obviously I was not going to be able to go full force with Delores if I felt like I was going to throw up or pass out. I also was still having weird pains, so I just felt like I couldn't do it. I made Delores's lunch and got that all ready so she didn't have to worry about that and then when she got there I went and laid down. I tried timing my pains, but they were all over the place, and somewhere after 1:30 I dozed off. I only slept for about 30 minutes and then I got up because I was stiff from laying in the bed. I wasn't very nauseous anymore so I got up to play with Delores and get her dinner made. I was still having pains but I got through it. Andrea stayed until Josh got home from work and then we did bed time and I went and laid back down in the bed. We had dinner in bed and Josh decided we needed to make some type of pregnancy dinner tray that would allow pregnant women to lay down on their side and eat with some type of Velcro attachment for bowls. I don't know, he is always thinking, but he was really just trying to make me smile. I went to bed after "Sex and the City," went off and that was the gist of my day.
Last night Delores got up and wanted a bottle around 11:00. It's odd that she would want one the early in the night, but she did. I think she is programed to get 3 bottles a day and yesterday, because she had lunch late, she only got 2 so she wanted that one in the middle of the night instead of early in the morning.
Today I have no idea what is going to happen. I assume we will just go on with our normal day and I will try not to think about this pregnancy because it is starting to make me depressed.
Sorry these posts lately haven't been very interesting, but I just have no inspiration right now. All I can think about obviously is being in labor. I know my creativity will spark back up after the baby is born, although it might take me a while to get on a schedule so I can blog.
Well, have a good Wednesday everyone!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
2 days overdue
Morning. Well we are still waiting. I had some interesting pains yesterday, but they went away about lunch time and nothing else happened after that.
Yesterday was pretty good. I put Delores in a cute Valentine's day outfit and put a bow in her hair that she kept in long enough just to get a picture. She was a live wire yesterday, but she was fun. I made Valentine's day cookies for my lovelies. It was my first attempt to make cookies, and I made them out of a box, so they didn't turn out like I had hoped. But they served their purpose. I decorated them and Josh thought it was very sweet that I was able to surprise him with something when we decided we would do Valentine's day.
My mom came by and gave Delores a little beanie baby Valentine dog that she really liked. As soon as she saw it she barked at it. Lol, so funny. She got two cards too and a little money for her piggy bank. She gave Josh and I a very sweet and heartfelt card too that we opened together when Josh got home around 7:30.
Poor Josh. Yesterday they laid off a guy, which put him on call on Monday nights by himself. This meant that any call they got at all last night he had to run. He ran hard until around 12:00 and then thankfully he didn't get anymore calls. He is still exhausted this morning because he ran non stop all day yesterday to make up for the one less person to share the load. Crazy.
Today, should be an ordinary day. I have no appointments. My brother may stop by to use my computer to fill out an application, but I have no other visitors planned today. I have noticed that I think I like being overdue a little. I wake up disappointed, but as the day goes on I become more optimistic and have more energy and excitement to carry me through the day. Yes I would like to get this over with and have our baby, but it is nice knowing that we are so close and it could really be any day. My estimate all along has been the 16th. Based on my last missed period and not my conception date (which was the 13th), so we will see. Maybe tonight or tomorrow. My ultrasounds dated the 18th so we could go to Friday and it would be fine. But then I could go over those due dates. Lol, you just never know. But everyday that passes I know I am one day closer.
Well I gotta get Delores up. She got up about an hour early today, but she's in her bed talking away. Her patience is wearing thin. Have a good Tuesday!
Yesterday was pretty good. I put Delores in a cute Valentine's day outfit and put a bow in her hair that she kept in long enough just to get a picture. She was a live wire yesterday, but she was fun. I made Valentine's day cookies for my lovelies. It was my first attempt to make cookies, and I made them out of a box, so they didn't turn out like I had hoped. But they served their purpose. I decorated them and Josh thought it was very sweet that I was able to surprise him with something when we decided we would do Valentine's day.
My mom came by and gave Delores a little beanie baby Valentine dog that she really liked. As soon as she saw it she barked at it. Lol, so funny. She got two cards too and a little money for her piggy bank. She gave Josh and I a very sweet and heartfelt card too that we opened together when Josh got home around 7:30.
Poor Josh. Yesterday they laid off a guy, which put him on call on Monday nights by himself. This meant that any call they got at all last night he had to run. He ran hard until around 12:00 and then thankfully he didn't get anymore calls. He is still exhausted this morning because he ran non stop all day yesterday to make up for the one less person to share the load. Crazy.
Today, should be an ordinary day. I have no appointments. My brother may stop by to use my computer to fill out an application, but I have no other visitors planned today. I have noticed that I think I like being overdue a little. I wake up disappointed, but as the day goes on I become more optimistic and have more energy and excitement to carry me through the day. Yes I would like to get this over with and have our baby, but it is nice knowing that we are so close and it could really be any day. My estimate all along has been the 16th. Based on my last missed period and not my conception date (which was the 13th), so we will see. Maybe tonight or tomorrow. My ultrasounds dated the 18th so we could go to Friday and it would be fine. But then I could go over those due dates. Lol, you just never know. But everyday that passes I know I am one day closer.
Well I gotta get Delores up. She got up about an hour early today, but she's in her bed talking away. Her patience is wearing thin. Have a good Tuesday!
Monday, February 14, 2011
1 day overdue.
Morning! Happy Valentine's day all you love birds! Well, we still don't have a baby yet. I am a little discouraged, but I am hanging in there. I just hope she's okay in there and that she isn't gonna hit a huge growth spurt right before she's born and be a 9 pounder, but if she is. There really is nothing I can do about it. I'll just have to push her on out and get over it.
Yesterday was pretty good. We went to church and it was a good message. All though I can't really remember much of it because I was distracted by an annoyingly loud off-beat clapper in the pew in front of us. I understand, she couldn't help it, but she was so loud. My ears actually hurt from her clapping. It just set the wrong tone for the whole service. I did the best I could to pay attention and learn but I couldn't stop staring at her wondering "why?" Oh well. After that we did lunch at Mutts. It was good, but Delores was restless and needed a nap, so as soon as we were done eating I left and brought her home for a nap. She slept till 3:15 and woke up in a very bad mood. That molar is really giving her problems. She just cried for 30 mins in my arms. Poor girl. She was still pretty weepy so we came in the living room and watched Baby Einstein. That cheered her up a little and we played for a while. Then it was dinner time and bedtime, and just like that, the day was over.
She did the cutest thing yesterday though. She got a hold of Josh's (hideous) necklace (I wish he would get rid of that thing, lol) and wore it around and wouldn't take it off until she was in the nursery at church. It was really cute. At one point she was also carrying around Josh's phone and she looked like a little teenager; Texting with her glamor necklace on, too busy to give us the time of day. Lol, adorable. I've been thinking of posting another blog to the babies to tell them what cute things they did during the day. I hate that one day I will forget all the adorable things they do everyday and never be able to let them know. We will see. It isn't like I have a whole lot of time to do it, but I could try. We will see.
Oh I also realized another annoying thing about pregnancy yesterday. Like when people say "wow you're huge," or "you look like you are about to pop." It's "you haven't had that baby yet?" Umm do you see a baby? I know that's mean, but I'm frustrated and disappointed she's not here yet, so why joke about that?
Anyway, Josh and I got to spend a good bit of time together yesterday. He got to go to church and lunch and then he had a call. He came home when Delores was sleeping and had to go again before she got up. He got home for dinner and didn't get called out again until 11:00 PM I think. We got to spend some good time together. I was very thankful for that. He is still on call tonight, but tomorrow things will go back to "normal."
Today should be a pretty normal day. We already did our Valentine's day so we don't have any plans. We are also not exchanging gifts. Mainly because I can't think of anything to get Josh and we are short on cash right now. I am going to try to make cookies for Delores and Josh today if I have time. Just as a little something, but that will be it. I've mentioned before that I don't cook when Josh is on call because he normally isn't here to eat it, so it will be left overs and cookies tonight. One highlight of today is that the new Disney Junior aired today, so Delores and I will have new shows and stuff to watch. Lol, that's when you know you are a mom; when the highlight of your day is the airing of a new kids shows.
Have a good Monday everyone! Send waves of birth encouragement my way.
Yesterday was pretty good. We went to church and it was a good message. All though I can't really remember much of it because I was distracted by an annoyingly loud off-beat clapper in the pew in front of us. I understand, she couldn't help it, but she was so loud. My ears actually hurt from her clapping. It just set the wrong tone for the whole service. I did the best I could to pay attention and learn but I couldn't stop staring at her wondering "why?" Oh well. After that we did lunch at Mutts. It was good, but Delores was restless and needed a nap, so as soon as we were done eating I left and brought her home for a nap. She slept till 3:15 and woke up in a very bad mood. That molar is really giving her problems. She just cried for 30 mins in my arms. Poor girl. She was still pretty weepy so we came in the living room and watched Baby Einstein. That cheered her up a little and we played for a while. Then it was dinner time and bedtime, and just like that, the day was over.
She did the cutest thing yesterday though. She got a hold of Josh's (hideous) necklace (I wish he would get rid of that thing, lol) and wore it around and wouldn't take it off until she was in the nursery at church. It was really cute. At one point she was also carrying around Josh's phone and she looked like a little teenager; Texting with her glamor necklace on, too busy to give us the time of day. Lol, adorable. I've been thinking of posting another blog to the babies to tell them what cute things they did during the day. I hate that one day I will forget all the adorable things they do everyday and never be able to let them know. We will see. It isn't like I have a whole lot of time to do it, but I could try. We will see.
Oh I also realized another annoying thing about pregnancy yesterday. Like when people say "wow you're huge," or "you look like you are about to pop." It's "you haven't had that baby yet?" Umm do you see a baby? I know that's mean, but I'm frustrated and disappointed she's not here yet, so why joke about that?
Anyway, Josh and I got to spend a good bit of time together yesterday. He got to go to church and lunch and then he had a call. He came home when Delores was sleeping and had to go again before she got up. He got home for dinner and didn't get called out again until 11:00 PM I think. We got to spend some good time together. I was very thankful for that. He is still on call tonight, but tomorrow things will go back to "normal."
Today should be a pretty normal day. We already did our Valentine's day so we don't have any plans. We are also not exchanging gifts. Mainly because I can't think of anything to get Josh and we are short on cash right now. I am going to try to make cookies for Delores and Josh today if I have time. Just as a little something, but that will be it. I've mentioned before that I don't cook when Josh is on call because he normally isn't here to eat it, so it will be left overs and cookies tonight. One highlight of today is that the new Disney Junior aired today, so Delores and I will have new shows and stuff to watch. Lol, that's when you know you are a mom; when the highlight of your day is the airing of a new kids shows.
Have a good Monday everyone! Send waves of birth encouragement my way.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Due date!!
Good morning! I half expected to not be writing this blog this morning because Delores's labor started at 2:30 AM, so i thought maybe this would be the same way. But every pregnancy is different. I still have 16 hours to go into labor and get this baby out. lol. Very unlikely, but you never know.
Last night was pretty decent. Delores was finding her own paci last night and putting herself back to sleep. I just had to be a little patient and hope that she didn't become fully awake instead of finding it and going back to sleep. She did pretty good though. I had to go in around 1:30 and give her a bottle, but I figured I would have to since she went to her grandparents house yesterday and she doesn't really eat well over there. But after that she slept pretty good. I think Josh got called out once right after that, but it was close by and he was back before I had fallen back asleep. So all in all not a bad night.
As mentioned before, Delores went to her Mimi and Poppy's house yesterday (Josh's parents) and I'm sure she had a blast. They also just got a crib for their house, which I love them for, but of course my particular little lady wouldn't take a nap. All I care is that they gave her a chance though. One of these days she'll get use to the idea and fall asleep and then everything will be okay. It would have been nice if we were able to train her to sleep outside of her crib at home from the very beginning, but the importance of a crib went unnoticed for them until just now. No comment on that. All I can say is that the fact the have one now makes me a very happy mom with one less thing to stress about. After she came home I went ahead and fed her diner again because they said she just wasn't interested at their house. She ate pretty good and then we did a quick bedtime and put her to bed.
Yesterday, after they came and picked her up, I met Josh for lunch and then came back home and took a nap. Or at least I think I took a nap. All i remember is laying there trying to go to sleep with the covers pulled up over my head trying to block out the light and then just being awake. I didn't feel like I slept but the clock said it was about an hour later than the last time, so I guess I did. After that I didn't do much of anything. I piddled around trying to find last minute things to do for the baby. I did diaper laundry for Delores. I stashed some burps cloths and changing pad covers under the top level of the pack n play and did some online "window," shopping. Josh came home and we were able to spend some time together because he didn't get another call until that one at 2:00 AM. That was nice. He brought me ice cream and a Dr. Pepper from McDonalds so I could make my own float. That was nice too. It was a pretty lazy day. After Delores went to bed we just sat and talked for over two hours with no TV about all sorts of things. We never get to do that. Then after that we went to bed. It was a pretty nice day.
Last night I thought I was entering into labor pains because I was having menstrual like cramps in the right side of my lower abdomen and back but after about an hour they went away. So no baby obviously. I've been having all sorts of different kinds of BH contractions and pains for weeks. I'm pretty sure I'll have no idea when I enter into real labor because I'll probably just think "Oh there is another weird pain that will probably go away in a while." Then bam! I'll be in full blown labor and not have a chance to tell anyone until I'm at the birthing center getting ready to push. This seems silly to some people, but honestly, even though I labored for 17 hours with Delores, I worked through the pain and didn't think it was that bad until we got to the birthing center and I was 8 cm dilated. I got changed and got in the tub and within 2 hours maybe she was here. I only pushed for about 15 minutes. It is likely I'll just ignore the pain up to the point I can't take it anymore and then the same thing will happen. We will see though. At this point I'm think she is just gonna hang out in there till she's 18 then pop out and be like "Okay mom, it's been nice. Now I'm off to college." lol
Today we are just doing the usual Sunday thing. Church, lunch, relax. That is if nothing else extraordinary comes up. lol. Well Delores has been talking to herself for a good 15 minutes so I better go get her up and ready and then get Josh up so I can get ready for church. Have a good sunday!
Last night was pretty decent. Delores was finding her own paci last night and putting herself back to sleep. I just had to be a little patient and hope that she didn't become fully awake instead of finding it and going back to sleep. She did pretty good though. I had to go in around 1:30 and give her a bottle, but I figured I would have to since she went to her grandparents house yesterday and she doesn't really eat well over there. But after that she slept pretty good. I think Josh got called out once right after that, but it was close by and he was back before I had fallen back asleep. So all in all not a bad night.
As mentioned before, Delores went to her Mimi and Poppy's house yesterday (Josh's parents) and I'm sure she had a blast. They also just got a crib for their house, which I love them for, but of course my particular little lady wouldn't take a nap. All I care is that they gave her a chance though. One of these days she'll get use to the idea and fall asleep and then everything will be okay. It would have been nice if we were able to train her to sleep outside of her crib at home from the very beginning, but the importance of a crib went unnoticed for them until just now. No comment on that. All I can say is that the fact the have one now makes me a very happy mom with one less thing to stress about. After she came home I went ahead and fed her diner again because they said she just wasn't interested at their house. She ate pretty good and then we did a quick bedtime and put her to bed.
Yesterday, after they came and picked her up, I met Josh for lunch and then came back home and took a nap. Or at least I think I took a nap. All i remember is laying there trying to go to sleep with the covers pulled up over my head trying to block out the light and then just being awake. I didn't feel like I slept but the clock said it was about an hour later than the last time, so I guess I did. After that I didn't do much of anything. I piddled around trying to find last minute things to do for the baby. I did diaper laundry for Delores. I stashed some burps cloths and changing pad covers under the top level of the pack n play and did some online "window," shopping. Josh came home and we were able to spend some time together because he didn't get another call until that one at 2:00 AM. That was nice. He brought me ice cream and a Dr. Pepper from McDonalds so I could make my own float. That was nice too. It was a pretty lazy day. After Delores went to bed we just sat and talked for over two hours with no TV about all sorts of things. We never get to do that. Then after that we went to bed. It was a pretty nice day.
Last night I thought I was entering into labor pains because I was having menstrual like cramps in the right side of my lower abdomen and back but after about an hour they went away. So no baby obviously. I've been having all sorts of different kinds of BH contractions and pains for weeks. I'm pretty sure I'll have no idea when I enter into real labor because I'll probably just think "Oh there is another weird pain that will probably go away in a while." Then bam! I'll be in full blown labor and not have a chance to tell anyone until I'm at the birthing center getting ready to push. This seems silly to some people, but honestly, even though I labored for 17 hours with Delores, I worked through the pain and didn't think it was that bad until we got to the birthing center and I was 8 cm dilated. I got changed and got in the tub and within 2 hours maybe she was here. I only pushed for about 15 minutes. It is likely I'll just ignore the pain up to the point I can't take it anymore and then the same thing will happen. We will see though. At this point I'm think she is just gonna hang out in there till she's 18 then pop out and be like "Okay mom, it's been nice. Now I'm off to college." lol
Today we are just doing the usual Sunday thing. Church, lunch, relax. That is if nothing else extraordinary comes up. lol. Well Delores has been talking to herself for a good 15 minutes so I better go get her up and ready and then get Josh up so I can get ready for church. Have a good sunday!
Saturday, February 12, 2011
1 more day!!
Well here we are at Saturday and the anticipation of this baby coming is about to kill me. I've started to find myself saying "She's never going to come." That's the way I cope with things. Think the worst so I'm pleasantly surprised when they go good. I remember thinking that way with Delores 2 weeks before she came and of course she came right on her due date at 7:35 PM. I think I've done pretty good on getting discouraged this time around and just started having these thoughts 2 days before her due date.
Yesterday was pretty interesting. Pretty ordinary like I expected, but then I started having problems with my phone after Delores got a hold of it and drooled all in the keys. It just went to sleep and wouldn't come back on. I started freaking out like "what if I go into labor? I won't be able to call anyone and I'll have this baby at home, b/c Josh is on call and he probably won't come home tonight." Crazy I know. After about an hour it finally came back on but now my keyboard only half works. Most all the keys work but one or two of them will come up with different letters and the space bar does a space and an @ symbol. I was gonna get an iphone for my birthday in exactly a month, so I guess I'll have to put up with it till then.
Another thing that happened was that a frozen jug of milk decided it would leak all inside my fridge and I noticed it when I was trying to get things ready for Delores's bedtime. Which meant that after a tiring day and doing bedtime I was going to have to clean out my fridge and Josh wasn't going to be there to help me. On top of the fact that my sink was overflowing with dishes because Josh didn't think the dishwasher was full enough to run the night before. So I became faced with all of these extra tasks added to my night when all I wanted to do was eat a quick bite (I don't cook when Josh is on call. Why slave when no one is there to enjoy it?), go lay down, and watch "Sex in the City." Nope, I had to bust my butt and kill my back before I could go lay down and then I was hurting so bad I couldn't get comfortable and then I had to get up with Delores 3 times between 7 and 10 before I finally got to go to sleep.
Last night was rough too. I don't know what is going on with Delores except for maybe she's about to cut another tooth. Until 4 AM she got up every hour on the hour wanting her paci. At 4 I gave her a bottle and I haven't heard a peep out of her since. It is displeasing (i had a teacher who hated the word "sucks," so i try not to use it much now out of habit) that Josh is on call this weekend. I got to thinking after getting up for about the 5th time that if the baby did come tonight (last night) I would be way too exhausted to go through labor and the pushing. I'm the one waiting to go through a marathon and I can't even train for it. That makes a lot of sense doesn't it? Josh didn't even get a call last night so the one who will just be there for support got a good nights sleep. That is frustrating. Being a mom is a tough job and no one knows just how tough each individual mother's job is until they do what she does everyday for, i don't know, maybe a week. I like when people acknowledge the fact that I'm a tough mom, but i hate it when people say they understand. Even if you are a mom, you don't understand. Every child is different and they all present there own difficulties so no one every really knows how tough your job is until they've lived it. Josh hasn't even watched Delores by himself for more than an hour or two, so I hate it when he says "he understands," too. He is a great dad, but he doesn't get it.
Today I hope my in laws will watch Delores for a while so I can get some rest. My nesting will probably get the best of me and I will do some laundry and organizing, but I planned way in advance to have Josh help me get this house clean before the baby comes so I really don't have much else to do. Oh I just realized I dreamed the baby was coming and I was yelling at Josh to just sweep the floors because we had to be ready. lol. The night before I dreamed I was breastfeeding our new baby. Obviously I am ready for her to be here. Maybe tonight. Maybe.
So I hope everyone has a terrific Saturday!
Yesterday was pretty interesting. Pretty ordinary like I expected, but then I started having problems with my phone after Delores got a hold of it and drooled all in the keys. It just went to sleep and wouldn't come back on. I started freaking out like "what if I go into labor? I won't be able to call anyone and I'll have this baby at home, b/c Josh is on call and he probably won't come home tonight." Crazy I know. After about an hour it finally came back on but now my keyboard only half works. Most all the keys work but one or two of them will come up with different letters and the space bar does a space and an @ symbol. I was gonna get an iphone for my birthday in exactly a month, so I guess I'll have to put up with it till then.
Another thing that happened was that a frozen jug of milk decided it would leak all inside my fridge and I noticed it when I was trying to get things ready for Delores's bedtime. Which meant that after a tiring day and doing bedtime I was going to have to clean out my fridge and Josh wasn't going to be there to help me. On top of the fact that my sink was overflowing with dishes because Josh didn't think the dishwasher was full enough to run the night before. So I became faced with all of these extra tasks added to my night when all I wanted to do was eat a quick bite (I don't cook when Josh is on call. Why slave when no one is there to enjoy it?), go lay down, and watch "Sex in the City." Nope, I had to bust my butt and kill my back before I could go lay down and then I was hurting so bad I couldn't get comfortable and then I had to get up with Delores 3 times between 7 and 10 before I finally got to go to sleep.
Last night was rough too. I don't know what is going on with Delores except for maybe she's about to cut another tooth. Until 4 AM she got up every hour on the hour wanting her paci. At 4 I gave her a bottle and I haven't heard a peep out of her since. It is displeasing (i had a teacher who hated the word "sucks," so i try not to use it much now out of habit) that Josh is on call this weekend. I got to thinking after getting up for about the 5th time that if the baby did come tonight (last night) I would be way too exhausted to go through labor and the pushing. I'm the one waiting to go through a marathon and I can't even train for it. That makes a lot of sense doesn't it? Josh didn't even get a call last night so the one who will just be there for support got a good nights sleep. That is frustrating. Being a mom is a tough job and no one knows just how tough each individual mother's job is until they do what she does everyday for, i don't know, maybe a week. I like when people acknowledge the fact that I'm a tough mom, but i hate it when people say they understand. Even if you are a mom, you don't understand. Every child is different and they all present there own difficulties so no one every really knows how tough your job is until they've lived it. Josh hasn't even watched Delores by himself for more than an hour or two, so I hate it when he says "he understands," too. He is a great dad, but he doesn't get it.
Today I hope my in laws will watch Delores for a while so I can get some rest. My nesting will probably get the best of me and I will do some laundry and organizing, but I planned way in advance to have Josh help me get this house clean before the baby comes so I really don't have much else to do. Oh I just realized I dreamed the baby was coming and I was yelling at Josh to just sweep the floors because we had to be ready. lol. The night before I dreamed I was breastfeeding our new baby. Obviously I am ready for her to be here. Maybe tonight. Maybe.
So I hope everyone has a terrific Saturday!
Friday, February 11, 2011
reality of it all...2 days left!
Good Morning! So yesterday I walked around Walmart for an hour and a half and guess what? No baby! Surprise surprise. What I did get was a bunch of pain. By the time we put Delores to bed I was exhausted. If walking did put someone in labor I couldn't imagine having to work through labor for hours after it. That just doesn't make sense.
So anyway yesterday went pretty good. Delores had a huge breakfast because she loves pancakes. I do not give them to her often but she is nuts about them. I gave her one, then a cup of applesauce mixed with 3 teaspoons of plain yogurt, then another pancake, and she ate it all. Not to mention she ate all of that after she had a 6 oz bottle of milk. She trips me out sometimes. I couldn't even eat that much. After that she was pretty lazy and I'm sure her belly probably hurt, so she took a nap. After she got up she didn't have much of an appetite for lunch. I got her to nibble a little bit and then we were off to Walmart. I did take it slow and I got enough food to last us about three weeks, so I won't have to worry about that for a while. It'll put us back on track to going on Josh's weekend off too so I won't have to try to tackle it alone or drag my mom or sister-in-law with me. We came back and Delores had a late nap. She slept till 5 so that threw her bedtime off a little. We ended up laying her down around 7:15 and I guess she went to sleep right away because I didn't hear a peep out of her. We ate dinner in bed and I was having painful BH contractions from all the strenuous activity so I went to bed and I slept pretty good.
Josh came in to tell me goodbye before he left and he said "give me a call when this baby comes today." He's so funny. For some reason he thinks the baby is coming today. Or maybe he just wants her too really badly so he won't have to be on call this weekend. Either way I still think she is coming this weekend. Maybe Saturday night or Sunday morning. It doesn't really feel real to be honest. This whole pregnancy hasn't seemed real despite my obvious growing belly and the ultrasounds and listening to the heartbeat. I guess because I just had Delores and I hadn't really gotten use to the idea that I was a mother and just had a baby before I got pregnant again. And now here we are, 2 days away from my due date! Insane. Well anyway I'm gonna be a mom of two very soon whether I'm ready for it or not and it is gonna be real. AHH!
Today I have no plans. Just another day. To most people it is "TGIF," but when Josh is on call it really just feels like a wednesday or something to me. So I will just go with the flow and try to make it through today the best I can and if anything changes with the pregnancy I will try to keep everyone posted. Have a good Friday!
So anyway yesterday went pretty good. Delores had a huge breakfast because she loves pancakes. I do not give them to her often but she is nuts about them. I gave her one, then a cup of applesauce mixed with 3 teaspoons of plain yogurt, then another pancake, and she ate it all. Not to mention she ate all of that after she had a 6 oz bottle of milk. She trips me out sometimes. I couldn't even eat that much. After that she was pretty lazy and I'm sure her belly probably hurt, so she took a nap. After she got up she didn't have much of an appetite for lunch. I got her to nibble a little bit and then we were off to Walmart. I did take it slow and I got enough food to last us about three weeks, so I won't have to worry about that for a while. It'll put us back on track to going on Josh's weekend off too so I won't have to try to tackle it alone or drag my mom or sister-in-law with me. We came back and Delores had a late nap. She slept till 5 so that threw her bedtime off a little. We ended up laying her down around 7:15 and I guess she went to sleep right away because I didn't hear a peep out of her. We ate dinner in bed and I was having painful BH contractions from all the strenuous activity so I went to bed and I slept pretty good.
Josh came in to tell me goodbye before he left and he said "give me a call when this baby comes today." He's so funny. For some reason he thinks the baby is coming today. Or maybe he just wants her too really badly so he won't have to be on call this weekend. Either way I still think she is coming this weekend. Maybe Saturday night or Sunday morning. It doesn't really feel real to be honest. This whole pregnancy hasn't seemed real despite my obvious growing belly and the ultrasounds and listening to the heartbeat. I guess because I just had Delores and I hadn't really gotten use to the idea that I was a mother and just had a baby before I got pregnant again. And now here we are, 2 days away from my due date! Insane. Well anyway I'm gonna be a mom of two very soon whether I'm ready for it or not and it is gonna be real. AHH!
Today I have no plans. Just another day. To most people it is "TGIF," but when Josh is on call it really just feels like a wednesday or something to me. So I will just go with the flow and try to make it through today the best I can and if anything changes with the pregnancy I will try to keep everyone posted. Have a good Friday!
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